Episode 145: More Beloved

OCT 29, 202537 MIN
Painted Bride Quarterly’s Slush Pile

Episode 145: More Beloved

OCT 29, 202537 MIN

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At the table: Dagne Forrest, Samantha Neugebauer, Jason Schneiderman, Kathleen Volk Miller, Lisa Zerkle   This recording had a rough start, Slushies. We’re talking technical difficulties, disappearing dogs, and tomato-eating cats. But we rallied in time to discuss two poems from Eli Karren. Jason hails the Whitmanian, associative line found in these poems. We’re taken with the specificity of detail, right down to botanical names and brands of beer. And speaking of Whitman, Kathy shares this scathing review of his then newly published Leaves of Grass. Lisa gives a shout out to Asheville as they welcome visitors one year after Hurricane Helene. Sam remembers that nearby North Carolina mountain towns stood in for the Catskills in the movie “Dirty Dancing.”  And we close with a poetry book recommendation, Gabrielle Calvocoressi’s The New Economy, just named to the National Book Award’s Short List. Stay tuned for our next episode, also featuring a poem from Eli Karren. As always, thanks for listening! Eli Karren is a poet and educator based in Austin, TX. His work can be found in the swamp pink, At Length, Palette Poetry, and the Harvard Review.    Mountain Laurel Last summer I drank until blackout, then chatted about Cronenberg with my neighbor. My head lolled over the fenceline. Even the ivy judged me. In the morning, I woke early to go to the pool, imagining a polar plunge as the ideal hangover cure. Really, it was a baptism. The purple light erupting first, over the city, mirrored back across the water, like a shattered jar of preserves, before the orange took hold, a tiny flame cupped between hands, being blown full to life. How Old Testament of me! To dip my head beneath the current, still in the blackness, and rise to the light. To watch the old men, naked and shriveled, towel off in the cold air, speaking of a tree that was to be sheared, their bodies backlit by roosting bats and mountain laurel. I don’t remember the last night I didn’t drink. For the longest time I said it was a response to the boredom. To the loneliness. I had kept myself distracted with NBA highlights and foreign films. With amateur pornography and snapchat filters. In a way, I felt as though I was already dead. A ghost wearing a human suit. That at any moment I could be cracked open. That inside, was the rising tide of a summer storm, turning the sky ominous and teenage. Maybe, feathers. Stuffing. Packing peanuts.   Elegy for the East Side Just tonight, walked from one end to the other, sequestered to the sidestreets, skipping over puddles and burned books Everything clumsy and beautiful and new Popped in for a drink at the garden supply store Noticed all the young couples sipping cocktails from flowerpots, kissing over pinwheels & lawn gnomes Could make out over the sound of small talk, the DJ spinning Plantasia The wisteria and wilted chard seeming nonplussed noncommittal This place isn’t the same since you left it Outside Mama Dearest the Cryptobros try to film themselves jumping a Cybertruck on a Lime Scooter Their wives hold Hamms in a semi-circle and look slightly like a Midwestern coven So elegant in their clear disdain Inside the parlor, the shrill recreation of a hunting cabin Taxidermied deer heads pepper the space between pin up girls, creating a dichotomy of destructive desire Nothing a shot of Malort and some curly fries couldn’t handle On the corner, telephone pole advertisements proffer mass ascension and a wet T-shirt contest A candlelit vigil at the American Sniper’s grave A shotgun of Lonestars chased down with a shotgun of Modelo The Texas sky somehow wider than ever The frequencies of bluebonnet giving way to indigo and periwinkle The quiet streets to house shows and seances This, so unlike the night we met No stars No fireworks No strangers in the street holding sparklers as we find each other in the handsy cocoon of porchlight No, only the moon sitting on the treeline like the egg sac of a wolf spider But on the water a cross between a duck boat and a pedal pub tied together with purple fairy lights Someone new, pumping her legs beside me The first to stir more than leaf litter and carcinogenic pollen Licking the salt from the rim of my margarita and shrugging A shorthand to say she is taking me home