The Body Love Binge - Eating Disorder Recovery Podcast

From Adoption Trauma to Root Healing - Saane's Extraordinary JourneyThis episode is absolutely raw and it's one you need to listen to if you're exploring what's really underneath your pain.I sit down with Saane, a physiotherapist turned Root Coaching founder, who was adopted from Sri Lanka as a baby and spent decades not knowing her story. Her journey took her from numbing with drugs and unsafe relationships, to meeting her biological mother, to using plant medicine (ayahuasca) to access the deepest layers of her trauma, to now helping others heal their inner child and access their roots.This is not a light conversation. It's deep, it's real, and it's about understanding that everything that happened before you were even born is living in your nervous system.This episode is for you if:• You've experienced adoption trauma or identity confusion• You're using substances or behaviours to numb overwhelming feelings• You want to understand what plant medicine actually does for healing• You believe trauma needs to be FELT to be healed (not bypassed)• You're interested in inner child work that goes beyond talking therapy• You're ready to go to the root instead of managing symptoms• You want to know what authentic healing actually looks likeIn this episode, we cover:✨ What it means to be adopted and the nervous system imprint that creates✨ How Saane numbed decades of pain with drugs and escaping✨ The moment she decided to search for her biological mother in Sri Lanka✨ What ayahuasca is and why she felt called to use it for healing✨ The difference between plant medicine in ceremony vs. random use✨ How the ego protects us from truth and why plant medicine bypasses that✨ The apology exercise that broke her open (writing apologies from people in her life)✨ Why having someone physically present while you feel is the healing✨ Trauma is created in relationship, so it can only be healed in relationship✨ The difference between feeling it to heal it vs. rapid resolution (bypassing pain)✨ Inner child work and why it needs to be a whole-body experience✨ Authentic movement (not dance) as a way to release emotion through the body✨ What happens when you combine inner child work + plant medicine✨ How she now helps clients through Root Coaching✨ The power of five minutes of silence when your nervous system is restless✨ You can't force healing. You create space and it unfolds✨ The lady who didn't cry for 10 years and what shifted it✨ Why you need a safe person to heal. You can't do this alonePowerful quotes from the episode:💬 "The start is there. It really is everything. It starts from the very beginning."💬 "You have to feel it to heal it. You can't just bypass all that pain."💬 "Trauma is created via relationship, so it can only be healed in relationship."💬 "The ego is lying continuously and very sharp lying to you. So you believe it most of the time."💬 "I'm so proud of her. Even though it's so painful, she's going through everything. Badass."If you're stuck in numbing patterns, if you think you need to understand everything intellectually before you can heal, if you're afraid of feeling your pain — this episode will change how you see what's actually possible.This is about going to the root. Not managing symptoms. Actually healing.Connect with Saane: https://sannevanrossen.nl/💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

You Recovered From Your Eating Disorder, So Why Are You Still Anxious?This is a solo episode that hits different.I'm addressing something I'm hearing from clients constantly: "I've stopped restricting. I'm eating freely. I haven't binged or purged in months. I'm doing all the work, Victoria, but I'm still having panic attacks. I'm still depressed. Sometimes I'm more anxious now than when I had the eating disorder. Have I done something wrong?"The answer is no. You've actually uncovered what was there all along.This episode is for you if:• You're recovered (or nearly recovered) but still struggling with anxiety, depression, panic, or shutdown• You feel like recovery was supposed to fix everything, but you're still a mess• You're wondering if you failed at recovery or if something's wrong with you• The eating disorder was actually numbing what's underneath• You're grieving the loss of your coping mechanism• You want to know what the fuck to do about itIn this episode, we cover:✨ Why recovery can actually make anxiety and depression feel worse✨ The eating disorder as a coping mechanism — what it was really managing✨ The window of tolerance and nervous system dysregulation explained✨ Why your nervous system is swinging between panic and shutdown✨ Hyper arousal vs hypo arousal — and which bank you're hitting✨ How trauma and childhood overwhelm shaped your window of tolerance✨ Why the eating disorder communicated what you couldn't say✨ You are NOT a victim to your nervous system — you can manage it✨ Up-regulation tools for when you're flat, numb, and depressed✨ Down-regulation tools for when you're panicking, anxious, and overwhelmed✨ The STOP skill from DBT — interrupt the automatic response✨ Natural reframes to stop the shame spiral✨ How to widen your window of tolerance intentionally and slowly✨ It's not about avoiding the banks — it's about your relationship to them✨ Practicing at your edge consistently until it expands✨ Using fear foods as nervous system expansion work✨ Why this is the real recovery work nobody talks aboutPowerful quotes from the episode:💬 "You didn't do anything wrong. You've just uncovered what was there all along."💬 "Your eating disorder was never the problem. It was your solution to a problem. Now the solution is gone."💬 "Recovery makes this worse because now you're feeling the full force of your nervous system dysregulation without the coping mechanism."💬 "You are not a victim to your nervous system. You can actually manage it."💬 "It's not about making the river wider so you never touch the banks. It's about your relationship to the banks when you do hit them."If you're recovered but still struggling, if you're wondering what's wrong with you, if you're grieving the loss of your eating disorder because at least it managed something — this episode will reframe everything.You're not broken. You're not failing at recovery. You're just finally feeling what was always there, and now you get to learn how to actually manage it.The song I recommended:QUIET (Acoustic) Hillside Recording & Diana Trout💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

This episode is raw, honest, and deeply hopeful.I sit down with Brooke, one of my coaching clients, who recovered from a severe eating disorder that began in her teens — fuelled by praise for being “small,” TikTok diet culture, gym culture, religious conditioning, and a deep fear of weight gain.Brooke shares her journey from hospitalisation and years of being “technically recovered but mentally trapped,” to full food freedom, weight restoration, and a life no longer ruled by her eating disorder.This conversation is especially powerful if you:• Are afraid you’ll never recover mentally• Fear weight gain won’t stop• Have food allergies that complicate recovery• Struggle with body image, curves, or modesty conditioning• Feel “different” or like recovery won’t work for youIn this episode, we cover:✨ How praise for being “small” planted the seeds of Brooke’s eating disorder✨ TikTok, calorie counting, gym culture & “healthy” restriction✨ Why traditional treatment kept her stuck✨ The turning point that made her choose recovery for herself✨ Doing recovery “for the we” when doing it for yourself feels impossible✨ Navigating recovery with food allergies (without using them as an ED excuse)✨ Full surrender to mental hunger — and why it’s non-negotiable✨ Gaining multiple clothing sizes and surviving the body image grief✨ Religious shame, modesty, curves & reclaiming bodily autonomy✨ Why weight gain did stop — and how set point brought mental peace✨ The messy middle of recovery no one talks about✨ Life after recovery: travel, work, relationships & real freedomPowerful quotes from the episode:💬 “I thought I’d be the biggest person who ever recovered. I wasn’t.”💬 “The long-term hard is living with an eating disorder forever.”💬 “Full allowance is what traditional recovery misses.”💬 “You can recover physically and mentally — I’m proof.”💬 “The eating disorder thrives in shame. I’m taking my power back.”If you’re scared, exhausted, or stuck in the middle — this episode will remind you what’s possible.💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

Fear, Power & Recovery with KarlaIn this conversation with Karla, I sit down and get brutally honest about fear - the real barrier to your eating disorder recovery. We talk about why every single one of my clients, and everyone I've ever worked with, is fighting fear in different ways. And more importantly, we talk about how to actually face it. This episode is essential for anyone stuck in restriction, anyone waiting to feel ready, and anyone who needs reminding that you have far more power than you think.Key Quotes from the Episode:💬 "Fear doesn't control your legs or your arms or your mouth. It feels like it does, but it doesn't. Fear only works when you run from it."💬 "When people say they can't, they're lying. They won't. And that sounds harsh, but I say it with so much love."💬 "You can't recover from an eating disorder while acting like you have an eating disorder."💬 "Only you can recover. You can have the best coach in the world, but only you can take the action and do the recovery for you."💬 "You're not your brain. You're not your nervous system. Show them it's safe to gain weight, even if it doesn't feel like it. Actions speak louder than words, even for yourself."✨ What I Cover in This Episode✨ Why fear is the biggest barrier to recovery - and why recognising this is actually empowering, not defeating✨ The difference between "can't" and "won't" - and why this distinction puts you back in your power✨ How to face fear without waiting to feel ready (spoiler: you never will, so you might as well start now)✨ The real reason actions speak louder than words - and how to show your nervous system it's actually safe to eat, gain weight, and rest✨ Why recovery requires both unrestricted eating AND trauma healing work - doing one without the other won't create lasting change✨ How your personality traits that fuelled your eating disorder can absolutely fuel your recovery instead✨ The power of someone believing in you when you can't believe in yourself - and why this matters more than you think✨ What true self-love actually means and why you're seeking what you already are✨ The difference between acceptance and surrender, and why the latter changes everything✨ How to use responsibility as empowerment, not shame - owning your choices is where your freedom lives✨ The role of support in facing fear - why you can do it alone, but why having someone reflect your power back to you changes the game✨ A guided visualisation to connect with your highest, most powerful self - the version of you who's already grounded, free, and completely at home in her body💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/ 💙 Work with me 1:1: https://victoriakleinsman.com/1-1-coaching/ 💙 Follow me on Instagram @victoriakleinsmanofficial 💙 Become a coach: https://victoriakleinsman.com/become-a-coach/

In this incredibly powerful interview, I sit down with Amelia, who recovered from anorexia, severe OCD, and suicidal ideation after spending 7 years in the UK mental health system. She shares the brutal reality of inpatient treatment, being misdiagnosed, having her autonomy stripped away, and ultimately recovering completely on her own terms. Now 20 years old, she's travelling the world - something that would have been impossible in her eating disorder. This episode is essential for anyone stuck in the system, anyone told they'll never recover, and anyone who needs proof that full recovery IS possible.Key Quotes from the Episode:💬 "I was diagnosed with anorexia, but they blamed everything on the eating disorder. They were treating me with rigid rules and meal times that just fed straight into my OCD."💬 "I couldn't see my family for years. My mum didn't see me. The system tore us apart. I felt so alone."💬 "I had my treatment team deciding everything for me from age 12 to 19. What I ate, what I could do, whether I could work or go to school. I don't like being told what to do."💬 "I looked at someone in their 60s with anorexia and went, 'That really can't be me.' My determination led me to be like, if I'm not getting help from the people meant to help me, I'll do it my own way."💬 "One day I looked at my eating disorder breakfast and went, 'This is disgusting. I'm not doing this.' I made a video saying from today onwards, I'm eating exactly what I want. I've never gone back."What I Cover in This Episode:✨ Misdiagnosis and system failures - How being labelled with only anorexia meant Amelia's severe OCD wasn't treated, and how rigid meal plans fed her compulsions✨ Inpatient treatment reality - Restraints, being surrounded by competitive illness, weight-based rewards/punishments, and why it doesn't support actual recovery✨ Separation from family - How the system tore Amelia from her mum for years, causing isolation that made everything worse✨ Psychiatric units and being sectioned - The reality of being moved to adult psychiatric care, having phones confiscated, and being treated like a prisoner✨ OCD rituals consuming her life - Hundreds of daily routines taking hours, controlling every movement, making it impossible to participate in life✨ The turning point - Seeing an older woman with anorexia and deciding "that can't be me," then choosing to recover on her own terms✨ Work as a lifeline - How having a job gave Amelia purpose beyond being a patient, helping her want to live✨ Reconnecting with her mum - The emotional reunion after years apart, and how it showed her where she wanted to be✨ Leaving treatment on her own terms - Threatening to section her again, going to hospital willingly to prove she didn't need to be there, then moving into her first flat✨ Stopping OCD rituals - Literally sitting on the floor mid-routine, singing songs to interrupt compulsions, exhaustion being the catalyst for change✨ The decision to go all in - Making a video saying "I'm doing this," throwing away old clothes, eating 10,000+ calories daily without counting✨ Extreme hunger and body changes - The 34-week pregnant belly, sweating, swelling, and trusting the process whilst her body distributed weight✨ Coming off medication independently - Reducing antidepressants and antipsychotics herself (with mum's guidance) after years on them✨ Full recovery and freedom - Eating whatever she wants, forgetting to eat sometimes, having boobs and a bum for the first time, travelling the worldThis episode will give you hope that no matter how stuck you are, no matter how long you've been ill, no matter what the system says - full recovery IS possible when YOU decide.💙 Join my FREE support group: https://victoriakleinsman.com/free-support-group/ 💙 Free trial group coaching: https://victoriakleinsman.com/coaching/