<p>Ruben Miller spent 22 years as a forensic scientist in New Zealand, working on more than 160 homicide investigations. This is the story of what it cost him.</p><br><p>In this episode we talk about what it actually feels like to walk into a homicide scene, the forensic principle that guides every investigation, the case that still hasn't left him, and what two decades of witnessing violence quietly does to a person. </p><br><p>We also get into PTSD, therapy, what resilience actually means versus what we tell ourselves it means, and how Ruben found compassion for people most of us would write off entirely.</p><br><p>Ruben's book The Blood Says Otherwise is out now at all good bookstores and online.</p><br><p>Steve and Seamus are proud to be dressed by our friends at Barkers Clothing.</p><br><p>⚠️ This episode contains discussion of homicide, child death, trauma, and PTSD. Please take care.</p><p>If anything in this episode brings something up for you:</p><br><p>Mental health — Need to talk? Free call or text 1737, any time.</p><p>Depression &amp; anxiety — Lifeline: 0800 543 354</p><p>Domestic violence — Are You OK: 0800 456 789</p><p>In a crisis right now — call 111</p><hr><p style='color:grey; font-size:0.75em;'> Hosted on Acast. See <a style='color:grey;' target='_blank' rel='noopener noreferrer' href='https://acast.com/privacy'>acast.com/privacy</a> for more information.</p>