Two years ago, I shared my story of quitting weed after 10+ years of dependent use. That episode became my most downloaded episode ever.
So many of you reached out saying you felt seen, understood, and vindicated. You told me my story gave you hope. You asked me if I was still weed-free.
The answer is yes. Three years strong. And this is Part 2 of sharing my story.
In this raw and soul-stirring bonus episode of Legacy of Love, I'm sharing what I didn't tell you the first time—the part that broke me open completely. The dark night of the soul that became my greatest spiritual awakening.
Because quitting wasn't just about putting down the weed. It was about learning to feel again. To breathe again. To trust God in the darkness. And to ACTUALLY hold myself through the depths of pain during this death & rebirth.
Inside this episode, I share:
✨ What that first month of withdrawal was really like
✨ The night I scared my husband and myself—and how that moment changed everything
✨ How my faith, breath work, journaling, and emotional embodiment practices guided me through the darkness
✨ Why I couldn't teach women & couples to feel their emotions while numbing my own—and the vow I made to live in integrity
✨ The difference between escaping your emotions and actually feeling them
✨ How I reconnected with God, self-trust, and my purpose in the middle of my breakdown
✨ Why your breakdowns are often the initiation into your breakthrough
If you've ever struggled with numbing, self-sabotage, or coping mechanisms that keep you from your fullest potential—this episode is your reminder that there's life on the other side of letting go.
Because sometimes, God meets you right there—in the unraveling, the tears, the surrender—and teaches you how to breathe again.
IMPORTANT DISCLAIMER:
I'm not an addiction specialist. This episode (& all episodes) are shared for educational purposes only. I'm sharing my own story as someone who is now three years weed-free. When I was struggling, I searched everywhere for other people's stories to affirm I wasn't alone. I wish this was talked about more.
May this episode be an example of what is possible for you too if you're looking to release a toxic coping mechanism.
If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse or mental health, this is your loving reminder that it is safe to ask for help. You don't have to do it alone.
📞 Substance Abuse & Mental Health Services Administration National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
💻 Find an affordable online therapist: BetterHelp.com
You have the power to break the cycle and pattern. I believe in you.
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And if you're ready to deepen your relationship with yourself, your emotions, and God — visit iammelissapeters.com to explore ways to work with me.
Thank you for listening. I love you. 🤍
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Why does he pull away after intimacy? Why does he need space when you need connection? Why does he take longer to fall in love — but fall harder when he does?
It's not because he's emotionally unavailable. It's not because he doesn't care. And it's definitely not because you're "too much."
It's because men and women are biologically, hormonally, and neurologically wired to love in completely different ways.
In this episode, Melissa Peters breaks down the actual psychology and neuroscience behind how men bond, pursue, and commit — so you can finally stop taking his behavior personally and start working with masculine biology instead of against it.
Inside this episode, you'll learn:
💋 Why your nervous system panics when he pulls back — and what's actually happening in his brain when he goes quiet
💋 The key difference between how women bond (through closeness) vs. how men bond (through effort) — and why this changes everything
💋 What oxytocin, testosterone, and vasopressin have to do with his pursuit, his pull-back, and his long-term commitment
💋 Why giving devotion too soon actually prevents him from bonding — and what to do instead
💋 The 3 ways men actually fall in love
💋 Why his pull-back after intimacy is not rejection — it's regulation (and how to respond without pushing him away)
💋 What makes a man commit long-term & how to become that woman
💋 The masculine-feminine dance: why giving him space makes him come back stronger, more devoted, and more polarized
This episode will completely shift how you see men, how you interpret his behavior, and how you show up in relationships.
Because when you understand his psychology, you stop feeling insecure, unseen, or unchosen… and you start feeling claimed, cherished, and understood.
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If you're ready to stop chasing and start being chosen, this episode is your foundation.
👉 Click here to join LOVER: Dripping in Eros — the self-paced journey to understanding masculine psychology, awakening your feminine magnetism, and becoming the woman who inspires pursuit, protection, and long-term commitment.
✨ Follow me on Instagram @IAmMelissaPeters
🎧 Subscribe to Legacy of Love for more episodes on feminine embodiment, masculine psychology, and conscious relationships.
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What if the reason you haven't met him yet has nothing to do with timing, luck, or being "too much" — and everything to do with the unconscious patterns keeping you in a loop?
In this episode, Melissa Peters reveals the real work behind manifesting a conscious, embodied masculine partner — and it's not what you think.
If you're tired of attracting emotionally unavailable men, repeating the same relationship patterns, or feeling like you have to do everything yourself… this conversation will shift the way you show up in love forever.
Inside this episode, you'll learn:
💋 Why you can only receive the love you feel safe to receive — and how your nervous system might be blocking your dream partner
💋 The 3 patterns you must stop repeating in 2026 if you want to call in healthy, devotional love (including the hyper-independence trap)
💋 How to fall in love with your own life first — and why this is the #1 thing that makes you magnetic
💋 Where to actually meet conscious men (hint: it's not just dating apps) — and how to put yourself in alignment with the life you desire
💋 The 3 essential lists every woman needs to create: Non-Negotiables, Nice-to-Haves, and How You Want to Feel
💋 What actually attracts a conscious masculine man (standards, receptivity, belief in the masculine, and your relationship with God)
💋 Why manifesting isn't about vision boards — it's about becoming the woman who can receive him
This is not about chasing, convincing, or settling. This is about becoming so aligned with your desires that your dream partner can finally recognize you, pursue you, and meet you where you are.
Because he can only meet you at the level you've met yourself.
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If you're ready to stop manifesting from wounds and start manifesting from your power, this is your roadmap.
👉 Click here to join LOVER: Dripping in Eros — the self-paced journey to feminine magnetism, healing with the masculine, and calling in the love you've always craved.
✨ Follow me on Instagram @IAmMelissaPeters
🎧 Subscribe to Legacy of Love for more episodes on feminine embodiment, manifesting love, and conscious relationships.
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What if your power in love isn’t in doing more, fixing more, or proving more — but in receiving more?
In this episode, Melissa Peters reveals the real secret to feminine power and attraction: shifting from control to magnetism.
If you’re a high-achieving woman who can build an empire but struggles to let go in love… this conversation will change the way you see yourself — and men — forever.
Inside this episode, you’ll learn:
💋 Why control feels safe (but secretly kills polarity)
💋 The difference between mothering energy vs. Lover energy — and how to stop unconsciously emasculating your man
💋 The hidden reason you over-give, over-function, and feel resentful in love
💋 How to inspire his masculine leadership — without manipulation or pressure
💋 4 Feminine Codes to shift from control to magnetic influence
💋 Why trust, softness, and receptivity are your new superpowers
This is the feminine way to create deep emotional safety, devotion, and desire — without chasing, proving, or performing.
Because when you stop managing love… love starts managing you.
✨ Mentioned in this episode:
– The “Mother vs. Lover” distinction from the LOVER: Dripping in Eros program
– The Feminine Codes of Magnetism (how to lead with energy, not effort)
– The art of feminine communication and influence
If you’re ready to embody your Lover energy, attract masculine men, and build a relationship that feels safe, sexy, and soul-led — this is where it begins.
👉 Click here to join LOVER: Dripping in Eros — the self-paced journey to feminine magnetism, irresistible love, and deep erotic power.
✨ Follow me on Instagram @IAmMelissaPeters 🎧 Follow Legacy of Love for more episodes on feminine embodiment, relationships, and polarity.
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