Feeling It, Healing It - A Diary of Recovery: Entry #143 "Hard Lesson In Perspective"
The Hollow9ine Network returns with a special and experimental new program...Today we're talking about Perspective, reflecting on the recent encounters of the last month and what they might've really been, as opposed to what they might have seemed to be.Also, Dave wrote a song, and it's included in the episode. Here are the lyrics...“Best of the Worst…”"[Verse 1]It was the bestof the worst of times...Chaotic torrentblowing through my mind...And every timethat I closed my eyes...Felt like I diedtrying to come back to life...[Pre-Chorus]I'm left to wooonderif it's really me who's standing hereand if they seeeee meas I'm bleeding, and do they careAre those her fingernails,digging deeper into my back?And is that her laughter that I'm hearingas the world goes black?[Chorus}Am I a billboard for everything you love to hurt?Am I your broken bones, a monument of dirt?Do you ever stop long enough to realize,that I'm the best of the worst instinctsrunning though....your mind?[Verse 2]The broken daysgiving way to night...Learning to live onwithout the light...She speaks in echoeswhen she's not there....But I still see hereverywhere...[Pre-Chorus]I'm drowning uuunderthe steady crashing of the wavesthe rolling thuuunderwaking alive inside a gravethe shadows creeeepingaround at every turnand I'm surroooundedby a fire, but still I will not burn[Chorus]Are you a phantom of every heart I've lost?Or are you the one who nailed me to this cross?What was that fire that I saw behind your eyes?Were you burning the best of the worstrunning through....your mind?[Bridge]What was it that made you so afraid?Was it your lips like a razor blade?Was it the rain pouring down for days?Was it the moment that kept repeating,the heart that wouldn't stop its beating,the wound that wouldn't stop it's bleeding,a stain that wouldn't wash away?[Chorus}Am I a billboard for everything you love to hurt?Am I your broken bones, a monument of dirt?Do you ever stop long enough to realize,that I'm the best of the worst thing thatyou love...or do you still have to lie?"...this program is created in hopes that the life lessons Dave is discovering can be a beacon to those who find themselves similarly lost at sea, in search of a light in the darkness...in search of the hope he, himself, has been searching for...Warning: This program contains true-life recollections of an actual person, that may involve content that some listeners may find disturbing or triggering. If you or someone you know is in need of professional medical and/or mental health assistance, The Hollow9ine Network implores you to seek out such assistance, and has provided links to resources that may be helpful here:CDC Mental Health Tools and Resources Index: https://www.cdc.gov/mentalhealth/tools-resources/index.htmNational Suicide Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 988Disclaimer: Dave "The Klone" Maresca is not a trained medical professional, psychologist, psychiatrist, or a licensed professional trained in providing therapeutic mental health care. This podcast is an account of his life experiences and meant to be just that. Any advice or suggestions made in the extemporaneous dialogue of the podcast is not intended to be medical or legal advice. If such advice is what you are seeking, you are encouraged to seek out the services of a licensed professional. The Hollow9ine Network and Dave Maresca assume no liability or responsibility for the information provided in these episodes. Support us on RedBubble:https://www.redbubble.com/people/Hollow9ine/shop?asc=u Follow us at... Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Hollow9ineNetwork/ Twitter: @Hollow9ineCast Instagram: @the_hollow9ine_network YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuwT8IxWRRI9I8hu2difvhg Email: [email protected] Dave's Blog on Medium: https://medium.com/@davetheklone