Heavier Than I Look

Lady Diana Spencer was one of the first public figures to be outspoken about their experiences with an eating disorder, and her bravery then is deserving of a lot of thanks now. Today's episode will explore two representations of Diana’s experience within the royal family, both that touch specifically on her bulimia. Listen to my thoughts on the portrayal of Diana in both Netflix's "The Crown" and Pablo Larrain's "Spencer".   Both of the representations I will discuss include spoilers and might be triggering for some. With this in mind, please exercise caution when seeing both the episodes of "The Crown" and the film "Spencer".   Bibliography (show notes): https://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/spencer-movie-review-2021 https://time.com/6113603/spencer-princess-diana-true-story/ https://www.nytimes.com/2021/11/04/movies/spencer-review.html https://www.vulture.com/article/spencer-kristen-stewarts-princess-diana-is-devastating.html https://metro.co.uk/2021/11/05/spencer-viewers-warned-about-graphic-and-glamorising-bulimia-scenes-15549426/ https://www.tyla.com/tv-and-film/spencer-film-diana-bulimia-eating-disorder-charity-beat-20211105 https://www.gawker.com/media/spencer-ends-with-diana-in-a-car https://slate.com/culture/2021/11/spencer-kristen-stewart-princess-diana-movie-accuracy.html https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/2020/11/10168677/princess-diana-bulimia-the-crown-season-4 https://www.insider.com/what-the-crown-got-wrong-about-princess-diana-eating-disorder-2020-12 https://studybreaks.com/tvfilm/the-crown-eating-disorder/ https://www.vanityfair.com/hollywood/2020/11/princess-diana-bulimia-the-crown https://www.instyle.com/reviews-coverage/princess-diana-bulimia-the-crown-accurate https://www.rollingstone.com/culture/culture-news/princess-diana-crown-netflix-bulimia-eating-disorder-1094243/

Roxanne Gay's memoir is a story of a body. Yet what “body” means carries so much more depth, so therefore it is a story about the several thousand things other than the body that contribute to the formation of the body. In this review, I discuss Gay's desire to live beyond her body, the gendered politics in taking up space, and how the weight of trauma is a permanent mark, impossible to lose.  Bibliography (show notes): https://www.nytimes.com/2017/07/14/books/review/hunger-a-memoir-of-my-body-roxane-gay.html https://www.newyorker.com/books/page-turner/roxane-gays-complicated-hunger https://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2017/06/the-boldness-of-roxane-gays-hunger/530067/ https://slate.com/culture/2017/06/the-hunger-to-stop-hurting.html

Setpoint theory describes a theory of weight maintenance in which one’s weight is genetically predetermined in a preferred range, explaining that your body will do what it must in order to maintain this range. Diets fail because our bodies and our weights are genetically pre-determined, unable to be commodified by the harmful BMI metric, which ignores several crucial details in calculating a person's relative health. This episode dives deep into both of these concepts and their standing in the medical field, uncovering significant chasms of misleading information.    Bibliography (show notes):   Christensen, Jen. Calling BS on BMI: How Can We Tell How Fat We Are? | CNN. CNN, 16 Aug. 2017, www.cnn.com/2017/08/16/health/bmi-measure-fat-questions/index.html. Ghoshal, Malini. “Set Point Theory and How It Relates to Diet and Weight Loss.” Healthline, Healthline Media, 19 Mar. 2020, www.healthline.com/health/set-point-theory#summary. Müller, Manfred J et al. “Is there evidence for a set point that regulates human body weight?.” F1000 medicine reports vol. 2 59. 9 Aug. 2010, doi:10.3410/M2-59   Oliver, J.E. (2006). Fat Politics: The Real Story Behind America’s Obesity Epidemic. (pp. 16-22). New York: Oxford University Press. Ratini, Melinda. “Set Point Weight: Why You May Regain Weight after Losing It.” WebMD, WebMD, 19 May 2021, www.webmd.com/diet/obesity/what-is-set-point-weight#2. “Set Point Theory: What It Is and How to Know If You're at It.” NourishRX, 21 Sept. 2021, nourishrx.com/set-point-theory/. “Week One: The Science of Set Point.” BIDMC of Boston, 12 Oct. 2017, www.bidmc.org/about-bidmc/wellness-insights/nutrition/week-one-the-science-of-set-point

Transgender individuals are four times more likely than their cisgender female counterparts to self-report an ED diagnosis, two times as likely to report ED symptomology, and have significantly higher rates of attempted or successful suicide. Thus, EDs in the trans community are horrifically rampant and especially dangerous. A transgender individual may develop an ED to create gendered features and conform to a masculine or feminine societal ideal.  All of us who have suffered from or witnessed an ED in any capacity know how tied up to body image it is. Considering that transgender people live in a body that does not feel true or like home, these body image disturbances can become even more heightened: control of food becoming the mechanism by which to modify their appearances. A tragic contradiction. Bibliography (show notes): “Eating Disorders in the Transgender Community.” The Emily Program, 5 June 2020, www.emilyprogram.com/blog/eating-disorders-in-the-transgender-community/. Ekern, Baxter. “Why Transgender People Are More Likely to Develop an Eating Disorder.” Eating Disorder Hope, 4 Sept. 2020, www.eatingdisorderhope.com/blog/transgender-people-likely-develop-eating-disorder. Harvey, Rachel. “Eating Disorders Do Not Discriminate: Trans Teens Face Greater Risk - Penn Medicine.” Eating Disorders Do Not Discriminate: Trans Teens Face Greater Risk - Penn Medicine, www.pennmedicine.org/news/news-blog/2019/march/eating-disorders-do-not-discriminate-trans-teens-face-greater-risk. “The High Risk of Eating Disorders in Trans Men and Women.” Eating Disorders in Trans Men and Women – San Diego –, 27 June 2019, www.sharp.com/health-news/the-high-risk-of-eating-disorders-in-trans-men-and-women.cfm. Lauren Muhlheim, PsyD. “Eating Disorders in Transgender People.” Verywell Mind, Verywell Mind, 31 May 2021, www.verywellmind.com/eating-disorders-in-transgender-people-4582520. O’Melia, Anne Marie. “What's Driving Eating Disorders in Trans Patients?” Medical News, MedpageToday, 3 July 2021, www.medpagetoday.com/opinion/second-opinions/93407. Rebecca C. Kamody, Kimberly Yonkers, Emily I. Pluhar, and Christy L. Olezeski.LGBT Health.Jun 2020.170-173.http://doi.org/10.1089/lgbt.2019.0354 Savereide, Erik. “Gender Dysphoria and Eating Disorders.” Gender Dysphoria and Eating Disorders | Duke Center for Eating Disorders, eatingdisorders.dukehealth.org/education/resources/gender-dysphoria-and-eating-disorders.

In the brutal lens of an ED, seeing yourself in a mirror or in pictures can be incredibly triggering. This is one of the pitfalls of self-objectification during the eating disorder, where we are ruled by parts of ourselves and how they measure up to a thin ideal. This lens at which we view ourselves does not automatically change the day we decide we want to get help. At any point during recovery (most especially physical recovery), seeing our bodies transform for health can be challenging. This episode focuses on how we confront our image again, prioritizing recovery, self-respect, and reframing representations of the space we live within.    Bibliography (show notes): “Difficulty with Skewed Body Image.” National Eating Disorders Association, www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/difficulty-skewed-body-image. Hagen, Uta, et al. Respect for Acting. John Wiley & Sons, Inc., 2008. Mitchell, Kylie. “On Seeing a Photo of Yourself and Not Liking How You Look.” ImmaEATthat, immaeatthat.com/2018/05/15/on-seeing-a-photo-of-yourself-and-not-liking-how-you-look/. Muhlheim. “Say Cheese! How to Be in and Celebrate Photos.” Eating Disorder Therapy LA, 19 May 2020, www.eatingdisordertherapyla.com/say-cheese-how-to-be-in-and-celebrate-photos/. Rollin, Jennifer. “For When You Can't Stand a Photo of Yourself.” THE EATING DISORDER CENTER, www.theeatingdisordercenter.com/blog/for-when-you-cant-stand-a-photo-of-yourself.