<p>In this episode is discuss my realization that I crave the pity of others. I crave the validation of the pity that I already hold for myself. I tell myself I hate being pitied by others and that somehow I am on a pedestal of sorts because I am a man and I can be vulnerable with others about my feelings and emotions. Last week I came to the realization when thinking back on past conversations with friends and loved ones, that I love to be vulnerable as a way to harness the pity of others. I do not make an effort to show how much I value those who are an avid part of my life. I reach out to others out of my own selfish desires of wanting to be pitied and have my negative outlook on life be validated.&nbsp;</p>