<p>A lot of times there’s a thin line between a mental breakdown and a spiritual experience. Adam has had his fair share of both. He shares them here and it’s quite a ride.</p> <p>Things kicked up a notch when he was a NCAA Division 1 football player managing a worsening drug problem. In a televised ESPN game, he had a psychotic break. Spiritual experiences, continued drug use, 12 Step Recovery, and total acceptance eventually follow.</p> <p>1:35 Amphetamine induced psychotic break during a D1 NCAA football game</p> <p>5:05 Continued psychosis for 4 months</p> <p>7:20 Psychosis ends then “things get weird”</p> <p>9:08 An overwhelming spiritual experience; “losing total sense of time and space”</p> <p>13:05 “the thin line between a mental breakdown and a spiritual experience”</p> <p>15:35 Beginning to use black tar heroin</p> <p>17:35 Instant relapse, going to the bluffs to score drugs</p> <p>21:35 Why he stopped relapsing - the 12 Steps</p> <p>23:05 Difficulty &nbsp;of what families experience</p> <p>26:05 Lao Tzu and Taoism; peace, contentment, and creativity in recovery</p> <p>28:00 A few second of contemplation</p> <p>30:20 Being back on heroin, living in Tulsa with his mom, losing his girlfriend</p> <p>32:35 Waking up dopesick, using heroin and cocaine</p> <p>34:35 Getting back into recovery</p> <p>37:35 Being deeply ashamed of who he was; out of dope, out of money, out of gas</p> <p>39:05 Looking at a gun and contemplating suicide</p> <p>41:35 Revisiting spirituality in recovery: Taoism, Zen, Bruce Lee, Alan Watts</p> <p>46:05 Shared Space, building a recovery-focused social media software</p> <p>47:35 Pema Chodron, “Comfortable with Uncertainty”</p> <p>50:05 Taking the 3rd Step</p> <p>52:35 Working in the treatment field, Life as play rather than work</p> <p>57:25 What Adam would pass on to people listening</p> <p>For more information, visit https://mattshedd.com</p>