I don't know about you, but I feel like more often than not, I'm coming unraveled. Which is funny because while I do feel like I'm coming unraveled, I also feel like I'm so tightly wound up it's a wonder I can even move.
AND, even though I'm in a state of unraveling, I apparently like to make things more challenging for myself and question LOTS of things. All these stories people have told me, stuff I've been telling myself...I can't NOT try to unravel those. So it's like there is unraveling happening all over the place and I'm standing in the middle of the chaos trying to keep my composure while also accepting the mess that life often seems to be.
And LASTLY, in spite of the internal and external chaos, I still feel little glimmers of hope sometimes - hope in what is yet to be. Hope that I have the power to change things I don't like. Hope that I can make a positive impact on the world. Hope that I'm going to do an OK job raising my son. Hope that things aren't going to turn out as awful as I think they are...
I'm not going to act like I'm perfect or have life all figured out, because I don't. I'm not going to act like I'm happy all the time and all I ever see is sunshine and rainbows, because that is often not how I feel or what I experience.
But sometimes, I do feel like I have a good handle on what's going on, how I'm feeling, what the "right" thing to do is. And sometimes, I AM happy and hopeful. And I know that all of this is OK.
If ANY of this resonates with you, I'm happy you're here. And thank you, by the way, for being here. Let's try to get through the beautiful mess that life is together, OK?
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