Happiness as a drug has many dealers. You don’t have to chase happiness, when you chase it you never arrive at your destination. Truthfully a lot of tension comes with growth & you might not be sure that it’s going to take off the way you hope but you’re in the hands of God, God is still changing lives so why not you, why can’t you take the process and run with it, why not accept that when you chose the process you didn’t only bargain for joy. What you’re seeking is divine - is that not so ? Happiness: YouTube https://youtu.be/e9dZQelULDk