the friend I needed

[ep 13] am I too resistant to the natural discomforts of life? is that resistance making my life harder than it needs to be? we all know that mindset is everything…but this is a complicated issue when you take depression and other human pains into consideration because we feel we experience discomfort enough. can we make room in our lives to accept that life is inherently uncomfortable? I think this necessary acceptance can allow us to face the inevitable obstacles and mundaneness of life. 

modern day life has offered us reprieve from the challenges our ancestors faced and has elevated the human experience…but where there is more pleasure, there is more pain

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[ep 12] I’ve been isolating. if you have been too…you shouldn’t feel bad about it. today I’ll share what my isolation has been looking like. 

being around people I can’t show my full self to is exhausting. I’m over here busy trying to keep my mental afloat which makes it hard to socialize or listen to other people’s unrelatable and relatively ordinary drama. would I prefer to have close ones to be with? of course! but finding good people that understand you is hard, and I don’t have the extra energy to expend to find them when I don’t even know that it will pay off. people have definitely made me feel bad about myself for living this way, especially as someone in their 20s, but I’m here to tell you that there is nothing wrong with it.

I care about you and I support you.

[ep 11] why are we here? why does anything exist? these questions are something that everyone has thought about and some more often than others. not knowing the meaning of life used to drive me into anxious states of panic. fortunately, i’m at a point where I have gathered enough questions, answers, and theories to form some grounding beliefs about life and the universe. today I will be sharing my thoughts to perhaps give you some answers, reaffirm your own beliefs, plant some seeds for new ideas, and pique some questions within yourself. of course, this will involve discussing the dynamics of modern day life and the human condition

time stamps:  4:11 - my theory on the meaning of life 14:07 - why does it feel like we are chasing something? 43:12 - God? 1:01:26 - a higher power and metaphysics 1:14:47 - existentialism

[ep 10] SOC=stream of conciousness episode. me unfiltered with no episode plan. just speaking my mind in what I can see now in retrospect was an anxiety episode. a night where I am so sick of feeling like shit. I'm trying my best to do better for myself and things go up and up and then I am back at the bottom again. how many times can I hit the bottom and still have the energy to get up? I'll let you into my psyche during this moment. you know why? because when I am going crazy, it would be nice to know that other people were going crazy too. I hope this makes you feel less alone in your crazy I talk about God, catastrophizing during anxious moments, my brain being convinced I can think my way out of my problems (when thinking only makes things worse), the war between 'what I think I should do' vs. 'what actually helps', deescalating from an anxiety episode, and lows being a fire under your ass that give you motivation you're awesome for listening and know that you are my friend and are not alone.

[ep 9] we have 2 options in life - to resist what is happening to us or to accept it; I call this the 2 option dilemma. by conceptualizing our nature to toggle between the two of them, I better understand the way I operate. intellectualizing emotions helps to bring a greater sense of calm and control over my life because I am understanding my emotions and nature rather than being overwhelmed by a wave of it. resistance is usually me overwhlemed by the uncomfort of my reality and not wanting to exist at all and acceptance is when I am ready to persist and work for a better tomorrow. let's talk more about it. you don't wanna? ugh, well I think you should listen anyway