Kudzaii's Podcast

Why can I become afraid of losing someone before they’ve even gone? I explore how experiences of loss, rejection and relationships may have shaped the way I experience closeness, and ask whether I’m really afraid of people leaving—or what their leaving would make me believe about myself. Send us Fan Mail Support the show

Why do I constantly feel like I need to prove my worth? I explore how rejection, achievement, relationships and comparison have influenced my need for validation, while asking the uncomfortable question: who am I actually trying to prove myself to? Send us Fan Mail Support the show

This episode explores how loneliness can exist even when we’re surrounded by people. I unpack my own experiences of feeling unseen and misunderstood, and question whether loneliness is really about not having people around—or not feeling truly known by them. Send us Fan Mail Support the show

There was a time when I couldn’t imagine my future. Now I’m living in a future that younger me never got to see. I still don’t have everything figured out—but I’m still here. Send us Fan Mail Support the show

There were moments in my life when I couldn’t see a way forward. This isn’t about how I tried to end my life—it’s about the pain behind reaching that point, what I needed, and what I wish I could tell my younger self Send us Fan Mail Support the show