The Integrated Self

Forgiveness is not something we do to let someone else off the hook, it's something we do for ourselves to allow more love into our lives. We can still maintain boundaries and discernment of what we're not okay with while we forgive, while we stop continuing to poison ourselves with the stuck energy of a grudge. In this episode: Preambles before we get to the point A Course in Miracles Forgiveness is a tool that transform poison into Light A personal example I felt regret for and the need for forgiveness Necessary and unnecessary suffering Grudges create walls between ourself and life / love Forgiveness as grace The paradox of unconditional love and things that aren't okay Resisting and accepting life A guided practice to actualize and experience forgiveness - Feel the effect in you of the thing you don't like - The mind opens to a wider understanding - Our pain around it sequences, digests, and releases - Love comes in and through us How a long, developmental view of life supports forgiveness

Providing an encore to the last two episodes, we round out our deep dive into the spirituality of Phish by focusing on the profundity of playing with humor. In this episode: The lineage of humility, humor, and light-heartedness of Phish and the sometimes heaviness of The Grateful Dead The cosmic joke of seriously mattering and simultaneously not mattering Vampire Weekend's Ezra Koenig on music critics' valuing serious art more than lighthearted art Grown ups standing still talking at each other Everything Everywhere All At Once

The living spiritual path I'm most connected to, present in and transcending many different traditions, is the path of leaning into life, leaning into the body, the challenges, the relationships, the experiences, the boring and mundane, and awakening the transcendent miracle of life in all things. The band Phish embodies this praxis through the ways they listen humbly to each other and the energy in the room of their concerts; through saying "yes, and" to whatever arises; and through playing with form and freedom to create a cohesive third force of engagement, a relational field in which all who listen to and participate in their music can connect with the paradoxical fullness of life. Their art also expresses a consciousness to these qualities, acknowledging the seriousness of life and the cosmic joke of it all simultaneously. At the core, Phish create a symbolic language I resonate with to connect to higher frequencies of life. After last episode's introduction to the band, this episode uses the band as a springboard to focus more on these spiritual qualities. The episode goes a little "type 2" (Phish speak for when a jam completely leaves the song structure and starts making up new spontaneous compositions) and rambley exploratory, not unlike an exciting Phish jam. I hope you enjoy it, and use it to connect to the higher potential in yourself and your life. a preramble on interpreting life symbolically, finding the high teachings in any phenomena. connecting with a conversation you resonate with. I resonate with the conversation and sense of humor of Phish. how "yes, and" and improvising with life is a spiritual practice the animism of humble listening listening as respecting transpersonal experience and personal feelings, needs, and under the surface realities humility dissolves the ego grief rituals hold relational humility in recognition of a larger whole form and freedom, songs and jams, duality and non-duality, and the third creation behind the binaries honoring the transcendence of the mundane life experiences a quick encore to focus on safely leaning into the body to access the depth of your spirituality

Why 43 years of friendship, humor, intelligence, and creativity is so meaningful to so many. In this episode, I describe how being present (i.e. surrendering to the flow) is a key ingredient to spiritual experiences. The band Phish offers A LOT to be present with, in caring, inclusive, and endlessly playful ways. Among many insights and experiences, three of the core teachings I've learned from Phish are: 1. Listening humbly and responding powerfully, 2. Balancing form and freedom, 3. Saying "Yes, And" to whatever's happening. This is the Spirituality of Phish. In this episode: What is and isn't "spiritual"? Sustained Presence is a key aspect of spirituality and ceremony Containers you need to fit into, and containers that naturally fit all of you Phish is 4 friends - humble, kind, genuine, and inviting How dancing can widen and support listening and understanding what you're hearing The blended unity of difference Phish are master teachers of listening Music as presentation and music as participatory journey Humility in listening, and sharing the lead Balancing form and freedom, earth and sky The multi-meaninged abstract nature of Phish's lyrics Bringing your personal process into the music listening experience Phish's expertise at "Yes, And" Jamming awkward and any mood (I referenced them playing a song and mistakenly said it was Cannonball, meant to say it was Catapult) Tension and release Phish's career-long and ongoing evolution, musically and personally Ghosts of the Forest and Phish fans' widely varying opinions and criticisms of the band The full freedom of the open channel Phish creates Phish's psychically attuned light show The art of listening and responding simultaneously Listening to each band member and widening your awareness - teaching owl eyes practice to relax mental fixations Specific Phish listening recommendations "Hose" and channeling spiritual experience through music Letting the surreal lyrics and music work on you from the inside over time Growing presence and spiritual awareness by surrendering to the flow of whatever is happening Find and play your notes in the already present music of life

Most of Modern Western culture abhors, shuns, and deeply fears Death. But what if Death is holding the key to the full unblemished experience of Life, and by turning away from Death, we are limiting our ability to live as the full, complete, perfect beings we deep down know ourselves to be? Continuing the contemplation started in Episode 14: Death is Safe, this episode ventures, safely in our breathing bodies, to the doorway that honoring Death can lead us through. When we allow Death to sit at our table... or rather, when we recognize that Death is the one who prepared and is in fact the table, we can relax into more of the fullness and grandeur of life, here and now, than we may have ever thought possible when we tried to live without Death. In this episode: Embracing and honoring death to fully embrace and honor life. A story of a compassionate chicken slaughter. The natural necessity of death in life. Death's portal into ahierarchical freedom. Duality, Binaries, and Masculine / Feminine Energies. Death as a feminine force. The purpose of life is to fully participate in life. The Western approach to hiding death and a more participatory approach to celebrating it. On loving through grief, and grieving as the most appropriate response to life. We're already living and loving through a field cleared and made by death. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King's teachings on death. Embracing the great battle of your time. Beyond binaries, good / bad, into pure engagement with the dance of life and death.