Trust God In The Pit

Your life can look successful on the outside while your mind is drowning on the inside. I sit down with Kirk Kuykendall, a Houston energy executive and father of three, to talk about what happens when anxiety, grief, and family fracture start writing the story in your head and you believe you’re alone in it. Kirk walks us through the “fragmented glass” moments that shaped him: his parents’ divorce as a child, bullying, and the devastating loss of his mother to suicide. Those wounds didn’t just hurt, they left cracks where shame, self-doubt, and fatalistic fear could settle in. When his own marriage began to collapse, the pressure to be the strong husband and dad turned into panic attacks and dark thoughts, and the accuser’s voice got louder: you’re a failure, it’s over, there’s no way out. Then comes the turning point: a pre-dawn walk, a mind racing with worst-case outcomes, and a question that stops him cold, “Don’t you trust me?” We unpack what surrender actually looks like for Christian men, why isolation fuels spiritual warfare, and how brotherhood and support groups can become a lifeline. Kirk also shares the practices that helped him rebuild from the inside out: Scripture that anchors the heart (Psalm 40, Isaiah 43, Isaiah 61), learning discernment, and showing up for men’s ministry through Freedom groups and Wild at Heart. If you’re battling anxiety, depression, divorce, loneliness, or relentless self-talk, this conversation offers real hope and practical next steps. Subscribe, share this with a man who needs it, and leave a review with your biggest takeaway. Chapter Markers 0:00 Anxiety, Regret, And Worry 2:15 Meeting Kirk And His Mission 4:05 Childhood Divorce And Fragmentation 7:55 Loss, Bullying, And Feeling Alone 16:05 Marriage Collapse And Dark Thoughts 19:40 Don’t You Trust Me Moment 24:20 Surrender And The First Steps 31:15 Men’s Groups And Spiritual Warfare Tools 37:10 Daily Gratitude, Freedom, And Closing Prayer Send us Fan Mail Visit www.thesavagepath.com for more on David, his book The Savage Path: A Memoir of Modern Masculinity, and the Savage Path Ministries Corp.