<p>Nobody warned you about the rage.</p><p>Not the sadness — you expected that. But the anger? The kind that makes you look at a picture of your mom and say *fuck you for leaving me?* That part, nobody talks about.</p><p>In this raw, honest solo episode, Nicole Weston opens up about the grief emotion she was least prepared for — the rage that followed her mom&#39;s death and refused to move no matter how many books she read, groups she joined, or therapy sessions she attended. Five years out, from a deeply integrated place, Nicole reflects on what that anger was really doing for her, why it&#39;s okay to be furious at someone you love who died, and what happens when your inner spark starts to go quiet.</p><p>This episode gives you full permission to be exactly where you are — and offers real, practical tools for honoring your anger without letting it define you.</p><p><br><em>There&#39;s not a lot of spaces where you can openly talk about how angry you are at your dead mom. I&#39;m the one that&#39;s living. I&#39;m the one going through the emotions. And if I don&#39;t move it, it&#39;s going to move me&quot; - Nicole Weston</em></p><p><br></p><p>In This Episode</p><p>- Why Nicole was blindsided by the intensity of her grief rage — even as a trained coach who teaches emotional processing every day</p><p>- The second year: why it hit harder than the first, and how perfectionism made it worse</p><p>- What to do when the books, groups, and therapy aren&#39;t moving the anger</p><p>- How survival mode creeps in slowly — and how your spark starts to go out without you noticing</p><p>- Why being angry at your mom for dying is not a character flaw — it is love with nowhere to go</p><p>- The moment Nicole realized: *thank you, rage. You kept me alive.</p><p>- Practical tools to release anger safely, without judgment</p><p>- Why your emotional map is one of the most powerful tools you have in grief</p><p><br></p><p>Connect with Nicole</p><p>Website: <a href="www.nicoleweston.ca" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferer">www.nicoleweston.ca</a></p><p>Instagram:<a href="https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferer">https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/</a></p><p>Connection Call: <a href=" https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection" target="_blank" rel="noopener noreferer"> https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection</a></p><p>Love This Episode?</p><p>Rate, review, and subscribe — every review helps reach another motherless mother searching for this community. </p><p>Take a screenshot and share it on social. Tag Nicole at @thenicoleweston</p><p>Know someone who needs this? Send it to her. </p><p><br></p><p>About Nicole Weston</p><p>Nicole Weston is a transformational life coach, trained social worker, podcast host, and Quantum Change Process™ practitioner. She works with women navigating grief, motherhood, and major life transitions — helping them move from survival mode into integration, so they can lead their families, businesses, and communities from a place of wholeness. She is a motherless mother, a wife, a business owner, and she built this podcast because she couldn&#39;t find the community she needed — so she created it.</p><p><br></p><p>Can&#39;t Call Your Mom is a movement for women who refuse to grieve quietly, and who refuse to choose between healing and ambition.*</p><p>New episodes every week. </p><p><br></p>