Can't Call Your Mom with Nicole Weston

In this raw and necessary solo episode, Nicole unpacks the unique and complex grief of losing a mother during the COVID-19 pandemic. This is a shared experience of loss where the inability to say goodbye, hold a hand, or gather for a funeral created profound, lasting impacts.1Nicole discusses the unexpected public scrutiny and judgment she faced after sharing a viral video about the guilt of how she spent her mother's last holiday. She shares why this experience highlights a critical need to change the narrative around grief and challenge societal expectations.Key Takeaways from This Episode:The Weight of Forced Isolation: Explore the impact of not having a choice in skipping the rituals of grief, like funerals and community support, and how that absence affects the grieving process.Guilt vs. Shame: Using the insights of Brene Brown, Nicole breaks down the difference between guilt ("I did something wrong") and shame ("I am wrong") and how this confusion can prevent self-care and interfere with moving forward.Your Emotions Are Information, Not Identity: Learn the transformative truth that your feelings do not define your worth or who you are. Your emotions are simply information letting you know what needs to be moved from your body.Moving Complex Emotions: Grief is experienced every day, across life’s joys and challenges. Nicole shares her invitation to stop the opinions and "shoulds" and give yourself permission to feel and move anger, rage, and guilt to find self-love on the other side.Resources:Download the free Can't Call your mom Anger Workbook Guide to begin taking care of yourself and moving stuck emotions: nicoleweston.ca/workbook.1Connect with Nicole→  Book a free 15-minute connection call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection→  Join the Can't Call Your Mom community:https://www.instagram.com/channel/AbZEHq7v2zWhwJfc/→  Website: www.nicoleweston.ca→  Instagram:  @thenicolewestonPlease subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. If you know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.Produced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced Hunter BlackettPhotography by Heather Whitcombe https://www.whitcombecreative.com/

In honour of Tracy- Tara's mom Tara is the creator of On Fridays We Dance, a movement born from heartbreak, healing, and the courage to finally feel it all. For the past 15 years she has been fostering connection through her design business, helping people create spaces that feel deeply personal and alive. After losing her daughter Harper, and then her mom just one year later, Tara spent years pushing her grief down — before learning to honor it in the way it deserved to be seen and felt.She began sharing her story and a weekly dance as a way to process her pain and rediscover her joy. Through honest storytelling and unapologetically offbeat dance breaks, Tara helps others feel seen in their own grief and trauma — reminding us all that healing isn't about moving on. It's about moving with.EPISODE OVERVIEWIn this episode, Nicole sits down with Tara for a conversation that is raw, real, and deeply moving. Tara carries compound grief, the loss of her daughter Harper followed just one year later by the loss of her mom, and she brings all of it into this space without apology. This is a conversation about what it looks like to grieve in layers, to numb and then finally feel, and to discover that joy and grief can exist in the very same moment.Tara shares how five years ago she quit drinking, and when the numbing stopped, the real healing could finally begin. She talks about the kitchen dance parties she had with her mom, and how On Fridays We Dance grew from a moment of silliness between friends into a deeply healing, community-building practice that has touched thousands of people.WHAT YOU'LL HEAR IN THIS EPISODETara's experience of compound grief — losing her daughter and her mom within a year of each otherHow she spent years in survival mode, pushing her grief down to hold her family togetherThe turning point that came five years ago when she stopped numbing and started truly feelingHow On Fridays We Dance was born from kitchen dance parties with her mom — and became a healing movementThe truth that grief is not linear — it comes in layers like an onion, and the body knows when you're ready for moreWhy joy and grief can live in the same hand at the same timeThe power of being witnessed — and why "I see you" can be the most healing words someone can sayHow her community on Instagram became a lifeline: "I don't feel so alone"A MOMENT THAT WILL STAY WITH YOU"Healing isn't about moving on. It's about moving with." Tara's story shows us that grief doesn't end on a timeline. Fifteen years in, she is still dancing with it — and that is not a sign of failure. It is a sign of love.CONNECT WITH TARAFollow Tara on Instagram and join the On Fridays We Dance movement, a community that shows up every week to feel it all, laugh through it, cry through it, and dance through it together. https://www.instagram.com/taraporterofficial/Resources:Download the free Can't Call your mom Anger Workbook Guide to begin taking care of yourself and moving stuck emotions: nicoleweston.ca/workbook.1Connect with Nicole→  Book a free 15-minute connection call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection→  Join the Can't Call Your Mom community:https://www.instagram.com/channel/AbZEHq7v2zWhwJfc/→  Website: www.nicoleweston.ca→  Instagram:  @thenicolewestonProduced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter BlackettPhotography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. You know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.

Nobody warned you about the anger.You expected sadness. Maybe tears. Maybe missing her at the holidays or reaching for your phone to call her out of habit. What you didn't expect was the rage. The fury. Looking at her picture and feeling something that had nothing to do with softness.And then — the shame of feeling it.In this episode, Nicole Weston goes to the place most grief spaces won't touch: the anger we carry at the person we lost. The "fuck you" that lives in your chest. The emotion that doesn't fit the image of who you are — and why it showed up anyway.This is not a pretty episode. It is a true one.In this episode:→ Why the anger after mom dies can be more shocking than the grief itself→ The shame spiral — being angry, then judging yourself for being angry→ Why anger in grief is actually your nervous system protecting you→ What happens when the anger has nowhere to go — and where it ends up instead→ Four rage rituals to move the anger through your body safely and with intention→ Why your emotions are not defining you — they are indicating what you need→ What lives on the other side of the anger when you finally let it moveFree Resource: Grab the WorkbookLet’s move it: The Anger That Nobody Warned Me is Nicole's free guide to moving anger and rage out of the body — without judgment, without needing to have it all figured out, and without anyone else needing to hold it for you. Download it here: https://www.nicoleweston.ca/anger-guidebook Work with NicoleReady to stop managing the symptoms and get to the root? The Quantum Change Process™ is a single deep-dive session where women release decades of grief, guilt, and anger — in one session. If you're ready, I would love to connect.Book a free connection call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connectionConnect with NicoleWebsite: www.nicoleweston.ca Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/Can’t Call Your Mom Facebook Community: https://www.facebook.com/groups/3961590940746387Apply to be on the show and share your story: https://nicoleweston.as.me/applypodcastI would be honoured if you could share this episode: Please subscribe, leave a review, and send this to a woman in your life who needs permission to be angry. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community and doesn't know it exists yet.Can't Call Your Mom, a community for women who are living, loving, and leading after losing their mom.Produced byNicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter BlackettPhotography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠

Nobody warned you about the rage.Not the sadness — you expected that. But the anger? The kind that makes you look at a picture of your mom and say *fuck you for leaving me?* That part, nobody talks about.In this raw, honest solo episode, Nicole Weston opens up about the grief emotion she was least prepared for — the rage that followed her mom's death and refused to move no matter how many books she read, groups she joined, or therapy sessions she attended. Five years out, from a deeply integrated place, Nicole reflects on what that anger was really doing for her, why it's okay to be furious at someone you love who died, and what happens when your inner spark starts to go quiet.This episode gives you full permission to be exactly where you are — and offers real, practical tools for honoring your anger without letting it define you.There's not a lot of spaces where you can openly talk about how angry you are at your dead mom. I'm the one that's living. I'm the one going through the emotions. And if I don't move it, it's going to move me" - Nicole WestonIn This Episode- Why Nicole was blindsided by the intensity of her grief rage — even as a trained coach who teaches emotional processing every day- The second year: why it hit harder than the first, and how perfectionism made it worse- What to do when the books, groups, and therapy aren't moving the anger- How survival mode creeps in slowly — and how your spark starts to go out without you noticing- Why being angry at your mom for dying is not a character flaw — it is love with nowhere to go- The moment Nicole realized: *thank you, rage. You kept me alive.- Practical tools to release anger safely, without judgment- Why your emotional map is one of the most powerful tools you have in griefConnect with NicoleWebsite: www.nicoleweston.caInstagram:https://www.instagram.com/thenicoleweston/Connection Call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connectionLove This Episode?Rate, review, and subscribe — every review helps reach another motherless mother searching for this community. Take a screenshot and share it on social. Tag Nicole at @thenicolewestonKnow someone who needs this? Send it to her. About Nicole WestonNicole Weston is a transformational life coach, trained social worker, podcast host, and Quantum Change Process™ practitioner. She works with women navigating grief, motherhood, and major life transitions — helping them move from survival mode into integration, so they can lead their families, businesses, and communities from a place of wholeness. She is a motherless mother, a wife, a business owner, and she built this podcast because she couldn't find the community she needed — so she created it.Can't Call Your Mom is a movement for women who refuse to grieve quietly, and who refuse to choose between healing and ambition.*New episodes every week.

Some episodes ask big questions. This one just slows everything down.Episode 2 of Can't Call Your Mom is a love note — to you, to your inner child, and to your mom. Nicole opens with something simple and profound: grief needs to be witnessed. Not fixed. Not rushed. Witnessed.In this softer, more intimate episode, Nicole shares the healing practice of expression — why saying the things out loud, in a journal, in a voice note, or to a trusted witness, is one of the most powerful tools we have on this grief journey. She also does something deeply vulnerable: she calls her mom. She leaves her a voicemail — live, unscripted, from the heart — and invites you to do the same.This episode is permission. Permission to slow down. To say the things you are still carrying. To let yourself be seen — not as someone who has it figured out, but as someone who loved deeply and is still loving through the loss.Why grief needs witnesses — not solutions — and how to ask for that from the people you trustThe power of expression: journaling, voice notes, and verbally processing your grief as a tool for healingNicole's story of standing in line at Life Labs alone during fertility testing — and the moment her mom's name was calledThe complicated experience of receiving signs from the other side — and why those moments can be both comforting and heartbreaking, especially in the early yearsNicole's live, unscripted voicemail to her mom — raw, real, and full of loveWhat it means to be a generational cycle breaker — and how grief is teaching her family to do love differentlyThe invitation: what do you need to say to your mom that you haven't yet?The closing reminder: you are not failing. Your heart is healing."Grief doesn't need an audience — but it does get lighter when we witness it and hold it together. Those two powerful words: me too. I feel that. You're not alone in this. That's when healing happens." — Nicole WestonIf there are things you wish you could still say to your mom, Nicole invites you to say them anyway. Write them in a journal. Record a voice note in your notes app. Say them out loud in the car. Let the words exist somewhere — because sometimes the most healing thing we can do is say them, even now.If you're open to sharing, send Nicole a voice note. She may read or play it in a future episode. Your words might be exactly what another woman needs to hear.About NicoleNicole Weston is a transformational Life Coach, Quantum Change Process™ practitioner, and the founder of Can't Call Your Mom. She is also a mom, a wife, a business owner, and a motherless mother, a woman who has done the deep work of integrating grief and ambition, and who now walks other women through that same transformation. Resources:Download the free Can't Call your mom Anger Workbook Guide to begin taking care of yourself and moving stuck emotions: nicoleweston.ca/workbook.1Connect with Nicole→  Book a free 15-minute connection call: https://nicoleweston.as.me/connection→  Join the Can't Call Your Mom community:https://www.instagram.com/channel/AbZEHq7v2zWhwJfc/→  Website: www.nicoleweston.ca→  Instagram:  @thenicolewestonProduced by Nicole Weston & Co-Produced by Hunter BlackettPhotography by Heather Whitcombe ⁠⁠https://www.whitcombecreative.com/⁠If This Episode Resonated: Please subscribe, leave a review, and share this with a woman in your life who is carrying this. You know someone who lost her mom during Covid and has never had a space to talk about it. Send it to her. Every share reaches another motherless mother who is searching for this community.