Grieving, Growing, & Glowing with Gisela (and Friends)

<p>It's been a little while since I released an episode but I decided that pouring into my baby makes me feel good and being able to talk through my experiences. My frontal lobe is fully developed (yay 25!) and so I had a lot of time to reflect leading up to 25 and the ending of 24. I recognize the vulnerability in sharing so much of my life and my experiences and it is a little scary but I genuinely enjoy doing it. I want to be more consistent and present and that means including loved ones again in the podcast and hopefully creating spaces to have bigger conversations.</p><p>This episode is dedicated to realizations, self-shame, emotions, familial traits, uncomfortable conversations, mistakes, growth, grace, smalls wins, and all the little things in between.</p><p>To Season 3.</p><p>To Season 3, Episode 3.</p><p>To more episodes.</p><p>To more episodes with loved ones.</p><p>To feelings our feelings and not letting them consume us.</p><p>To Grieving, Growing, and Glowing with Gisela (and Friends). Thank you for all the love, always, Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for all your kind words, encouragement, and love. I am so grateful. I am thankful beyond words. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 💐🤓💕💖💗💞💘🩷</p><p>Follow @gggwithgisela on Instagram to stay updated!</p>

<p>It has been a little over 5 months since my return and I have yet to post another episode so here I am to say I am back..for good (I think).</p><p>I am trying to accept and understand that pouring into my podcast takes a lot especially as a navigate everything in my life but I love to talk. I love to talk about my experiences, my thought processes, the state of the world, the connections about everything that makes sense to me in my brain (in hopes it would make sense to other people), my growing pains, my mistakes, my accomplishments, everything. I am also learning that it is better to pour some water into the cup than to not pour into anything into the cup at all. This goes for my podcast but also my relationships in my life. A little goes a long way.</p><p>Throughout this episode, I talk a little about what has happened in these last couple of months while also trying to highlight important conversations in the midst of my experiences.</p><p>To Season 3.</p><p>To Season 3, Episode 2.</p><p>To more episodes.</p><p>To pouring a little, cause it goes a long way. (We do not see the fruits the same day we plant the seeds).</p><p>To Grieving, Growing, and Glowing with Gisela (and Friends). Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for the love despite not being the most consistent with my podcast. Thank you for supporting me. I am so grateful. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 🦋💐💖</p><p>Follow @gggwithgisela on Instagram to stay updated!</p>

<p>WE ARE SO BACK!</p><p>Using this picture because it is how I feel about posting after nearly <strong>TWO </strong>years.</p><p>It's been a while, a long while.</p><p>So much has occurred in my life over the past two years. I have spent a lot of time navigating the next stage of my life while also navigating the new roles and responsibilities that come with this new stage. Throughout the episode, I tried to highlight or pinpoint certain things that felt important to share while also trying to be mindful. I also emphasize growing pains a lot, because I am actively unlearning and re-learning new things about myself. Growing pains means facing you. Facing yourself is hard. In the midst of everything, I am trying to show up for my inner child and my adult self all in one. My growing pains throughout the past two years have taught me a lot and continue to do so. I'm grateful for the growing pains and the glowing pleasures constantly happening. I emphasize crying throughout the session as I got emotional and battling that shame I have with crying. I talk about my self-worth and where it is rooted in and what I am doing to change those things and remind myself I am loved for just being. And existing. I try to share as much as I could remember about what has happened in my life these past two years. I am so happy to be back and pour back into my baby. I told myself this would be the year I take my podcast serious and show it all the love it needs. </p><p>I cannot wait to continue sharing about my experiences through the Gisela blues and continue having conversations with loved ones about our experiences and things that are important to us and even surrounding things related to the climate of the world right now. (This also goes back to things that are important to us because people are being affected). </p><p>This means welcome to Season 3 (yes, yes I know Season 2 was only one episode it is okay).</p><p>To Season 3.</p><p>To more episodes.</p><p>To showing up for my inner child + adult self. </p><p>To the Growing Pains.</p><p>To Grieving, Growing, and Glowing with Gisela (and Friends). Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for checking in. Thank you for the love despite not being the most consistent with my podcast. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for supporting me. I am so grateful. Thank you for rocking with me. 🦋💐💖</p><p>Follow @gggwithgisela on Instagram to stay updated!</p>

<p>The next stage of my life has required me to do a lot of grieving. This episode is talking about the transition and the thoughts that have been coming up for me in regard to what is coming. A lot of it is being scared of the unknown but super excited for new experiences, new places, new friendships, new relationships, new everything. Realizing it is essential to take it with a grain of salt, but welcoming everything with open arms. The thought of the transition, moving on, moving away, and doing something new feels hard and difficult but I know it is something that is impossible. I wanted to share with you all just where I have been, where my mind is, where my heart is. This next step of my life feels so hard but also so essential to my growth and the person I am destined to be. The hard part is letting go. The grieving. But I am so excited about what is coming. To be a Dominican girl (an Afro-Latina) from Harlem about to take on the world of Alabama and show them how a Harlem girl does it.</p><p>To Season 2. </p><p>To the Gisela Blues.</p><p>To the next stage. </p><p>To Grieve the old and welcome the new. </p><p>To Dr. Rosa in the making. </p><p>To Grieving, Growing, and Glowing with Gisela (and Friends). Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for checking in. Thank you for the love on this accomplishment but this next stage. Thank you for rocking with me. 🦋💐💖Follow @gggwithgisela on Instagram to stay updated!</p>

<p>In honor of papi's <strong>65th</strong> birthday, I decided to talk about our relationship and what that looked like for me. I cried a lot in this episode because it was me expressing my thoughts and feelings about our father-daughter relationship. I talk about the absent parent, questioning how can I miss someone who was not even present. It is hard. This was hard. But it was important for me to talk about something that shapes a huge part of who I am and who I am working towards becoming, but also the trauma and heavy stuff that comes with working towards that and growing up. My relationship with my father was nothing that I wanted it to be, but I tried. I forgot to mention that I was always told to look for my father even when I felt as a child that was not my responsibility. Talking about our relationship can sometimes be really hard for me because I want to remember more of the good than the bad. I don't blame my father for how he showed up in my life, maybe he could not be the parent I wanted him to be. But I am grateful for the time that we spent, the love he was able to give me, and how much he reminded me that he loved me. Although there are parts of our relationship that caused trauma for me, I am overcoming and growing through those things. I love him because he is my dad. He is a part of the reason I exist today, and my mom always made sure to remind me of that. This episode is rough and emotional but I hope it can also be loving. To papi's 65th birthday, I wish you were here. I wish I could hear your voice one last time. I wish things were different. To our un-complete puzzle with so many missing pieces, I love you and I miss you. Felicidades mi angel.</p><p>To hard conversations about our parents + our relationships with them. And the hard truth that comes with accepting who they are and the harm they have caused. To hard conversations about our parents who are no longer here. To our relationships with our parents that are un-complete puzzles with many missing pieces. To push through and involve and work on these relationships, if we feel this is something we want to do.</p><p>To papi's 65th birthday, te amo viejito.</p><p>To Grieving, Growing, and Glowing with Gisela (and Friends). Thank you for the love. Thank you for your support. I feel loved and supported always. Follow @gggwithgisela on Instagram to stay updated! ❤️</p>