In this solo episode of Get A Grip, Kendall shares a raw life update and opens up about what has quietly been one of the hardest seasons of her life. From questioning competition after ADCC 2022 to navigating burnout, existentialism, identity shifts, and faith… this conversation explores what happens when the thing you built your life around no longer feels the same. 🎙️ Kendall talks about: • Why her word of the year is “relax” … but in the heart • The difference between the “pre-conscious” vs. “post-conscious” athlete (term comes from a podcast ep. where Huberman interviews Joshua Waitzkin – that episode linked here for those interested: https://open.spotify.com/episode/06nvqDXdnYJiJd16MSod8K?si=P0YCXcoPR7ObCzQ5lInycg • Coming back to Polaris on her own terms • Why she may not compete again • Learning to stop hiding and tell the truth • What to do when you don’t know what your mission is anymore • How changing your mind can actually be healing • The real reason she started a 30-day talking-on-camera challenge • Praying for God to change her heart during difficult seasons This episode is a permission slip for anyone in transition… the athlete, entrepreneur, creator, or high achiever trying to figure out who they are outside of performance, pressure, or expectations (often their OWN). Sometimes growth doesn’t look like becoming “more accomplished.” Sometimes it looks like becoming more honest. ⭐️ Support the Show If this episode resonated with you, please subscribe, rate, and leave a review. It makes a big difference. 🎧  Connect with Kendall Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kendallreusing YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/kendallreusingbjj TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/kendallreusing Website: https://www.kendallreusing.com Episode Show Notes: 00:00 Time for a life update!! 01:53 Why my word of the year is relax… but in the heart 03:50 Getting desperate enough to truly change 04:59 2025 being the hardest year ever 05:27 I didn’t really “love it” during ADCC 2024 06:44 The “pre vs post conscious” athlete + existentialism 09:14 Coming back to Polaris on my terms 10:20 Why idk if I’m going to compete again 12:08 My permission slip to you to change your mind 13:37 Sweet Sweat Ad Read 14:59 Praying for God to change my heart 16:50 30 day talking on camera challenge 17:56 What do you do when you don’t know what the “mission” is? 19:42 Why I’m working with a fitness coach 20:54 My real current daily focus to help others be more of who they are 22:19 How I plan to stop hiding and how you can, too 24:30 To “love” and to tell the truth is my mission 26:36 Permission slip for you