What if you had let the version of yourself die so that you could rebirth the version you wanted to live?

In this deeply vulnerable and transformative episode of TURTZED, Charles sits down with Kayvon Kay to talk about the moment his life cracked open at forty and the work it takes to rebuild yourself from the inside out. This conversation is not about business strategy or scaling. It is about identity, surrender, and what happens when you finally stop running from yourself. This episode dives into the hard moments we often hide—identity loss, burnout, betrayal, self-doubt—and reveals how owning your story is the first step toward building a life aligned with your purpose.

Kayvon shares what it felt like to live a life that looked polished from the outside while everything was unraveling behind the curtain. We talk about losing trust in your own judgment, chasing validation through saving other people, and the slow erosion that comes from ignoring your intuition. We explore the walls he built to survive childhood, the labels that shaped him, and the shift from proving everyone wrong to proving himself right. And beneath all of it sits a quieter truth: real freedom is not achievement, it is trusting yourself enough to let go. From ego death to intuitive rebirth, this conversation is a masterclass in resilience, self-discovery, and finding your true north star when everything falls apart.

Charles guides this conversation with the grounding, compassionate philosophy he brings to coaching:

• Your story is your power
• Your purpose is born in your hardest moments
• Reinvention begins when you stop living for others
• Freedom comes from building with intention and integrity

Whether you're an entrepreneur navigating burnout, a creative rebuilding your confidence, or someone standing at your own crossroads, this episode gives you the clarity, language, and emotional permission to start again—stronger, wiser, and truer to yourself.

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00:00:00 - Ego Death at Forty and Rebuilding

00:06:30 - The Hard Work of Self Trust and Inner Healing

00:09:45 - Intuition, Self Worth, and Emotional Awareness

00:13:00 - Childhood Labels, Racism, and Early Identity Wounds

00:16:15 - Intuition vs Intellect and Learning to Follow Your Gut

00:19:30 - Breaking Old Patterns and Understanding Generational Trauma

00:22:45 - Releasing Ego and Surrendering Old Identities

00:26:00 - Business Collapse, Betrayal, and Lessons in Leadership

00:29:15 - The Drive to Save Others and What It Reveals Internally

00:32:30 - Mirror Method, Growth, and Loving the Game Again

00:35:45 - Identity Shifts and Building a New Way of Living

00:39:00 - Social Media, Avoidance, and Choosing Real Connection

00:42:15 - Redefining Success through Family, Freedom, and Presence