CPTSD runs deeper than you think. In this episode, we uncover what C-PTSD really is—and how emotional healing can help you reclaim your story. In this powerful TURTZED episode, Charles Turtz sits down with psychologist Vincent Barbieri, PhD, for a raw and insightful conversation about what CPTSD really is, why it forms, and how emotional healing reshapes our sense of self. If you've ever struggled with triggers, rejection sensitivity, or the feeling that your past is still steering your present, this episode will speak directly to your experience. Together, Charles and Vinny explore the deeper layers of complex trauma, the identity wounds we carry from childhood, and the emotional patterns we repeat without realizing it. They unpack how invalidation, narcissistic family systems, and early relational environments can distort our internal compass—and how taking ownership of our story is the first step toward building a life with purpose. This episode aligns closely with Charles Turtz’s coaching philosophy:<ul><li>Understanding our inner narrative</li><li>Reclaiming personal power</li><li>Finding our north star</li><li>Building resilience through truth</li><li>Choosing intentional, grounded self-leadership</li></ul> Whether you're an entrepreneur, creator, or someone navigating your own emotional landscape, you'll walk away with practical insights on how to:	• Identify CPTSD patterns	• Practice emotional safety	• Understand rejection sensitivity	• Break out of inherited belief systems	• Heal your identity and rebuild confidence Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit: https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer 00:00 - True Vulnerability &amp; Emotional Groundwork00:01:12 - What Is CPTSD Really? Understanding the Basics00:02:36 - CPTSD vs PTSD: How Trauma Shows Up in Real Life00:03:25 - Relationship Trauma &amp; the Roots of C-PTSD00:10:45 - Emotional Safety, Identity &amp; Early Conditioning00:18:08 - Authenticity, Posting Anxiety &amp; Emotional Expression00:20:06 - Why We Overthink: Emotional Triggers Explained00:27:25 - Anger, Self-Judgment &amp; Internalized Patterns00:33:40 - Rejection Sensitivity &amp; C-PTSD Emotional Healing00:50:12 - Childhood Wounds &amp; How Identity Gets Formed00:58:45 - Why Emotional Healing Feels Hard but Necessary01:05:20 - What C-PTSD Really Teaches Us About Ourselves

<description>&lt;p&gt;CPTSD runs deeper than you think. In this episode, we uncover what C-PTSD really is—and how emotional healing can help you reclaim your story.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In this powerful TURTZED episode, Charles Turtz sits down with psychologist &lt;strong&gt;Vincent Barbieri&lt;/strong&gt;, PhD, for a raw and insightful conversation about what CPTSD really is, why it forms, and how emotional healing reshapes our sense of self. If you've ever struggled with triggers, rejection sensitivity, or the feeling that your past is still steering your present, this episode will speak directly to your experience.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Together, Charles and Vinny explore the deeper layers of complex trauma, the identity wounds we carry from childhood, and the emotional patterns we repeat without realizing it. They unpack how invalidation, narcissistic family systems, and early relational environments can distort our internal compass—and how taking ownership of our story is the first step toward building a life with purpose.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;This episode aligns closely with Charles Turtz’s coaching philosophy:&lt;/p&gt;&lt;ul&gt;&lt;li&gt;Understanding our inner narrative&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Reclaiming personal power&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Finding our north star&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Building resilience through truth&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Choosing intentional, grounded self-leadership&lt;/li&gt;&lt;/ul&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Whether you're an entrepreneur, creator, or someone navigating your own emotional landscape, you'll walk away with practical insights on how to:&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;	• Identify CPTSD patterns&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;	• Practice emotional safety&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;	• Understand rejection sensitivity&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;	• Break out of inherited belief systems&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;	• Heal your identity and rebuild confidence&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Disclaimer: &lt;/strong&gt;The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit: https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt; &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:00 - True Vulnerability &amp;amp; Emotional Groundwork&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:01:12 - What Is CPTSD Really? Understanding the Basics&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:02:36 - CPTSD vs PTSD: How Trauma Shows Up in Real Life&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:03:25 - Relationship Trauma &amp;amp; the Roots of C-PTSD&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:10:45 - Emotional Safety, Identity &amp;amp; Early Conditioning&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:18:08 - Authenticity, Posting Anxiety &amp;amp; Emotional Expression&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:20:06 - Why We Overthink: Emotional Triggers Explained&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:27:25 - Anger, Self-Judgment &amp;amp; Internalized Patterns&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:33:40 - Rejection Sensitivity &amp;amp; C-PTSD Emotional Healing&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:50:12 - Childhood Wounds &amp;amp; How Identity Gets Formed&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:58:45 - Why Emotional Healing Feels Hard but Necessary&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;01:05:20 - What C-PTSD Really Teaches Us About Ourselves&lt;/p&gt;</description>

CPTSD runs deeper than you think. In this episode, we uncover what C-PTSD really is—and how emotional healing can help you reclaim your story.In this powerful TURTZED episode, Charles Turtz sits down with psychologist Vincent Barbieri, PhD, for a r...

Vincent Barbier: What Is CPTSD? And, Why Emotional Healing Feels So Hard | Ep. 48

What if you had let the version of yourself die so that you could rebirth the version you wanted to live? In this deeply vulnerable and transformative episode of TURTZED, Charles sits down with Kayvon Kay to talk about the moment his life cracked open at forty and the work it takes to rebuild yourself from the inside out. This conversation is not about business strategy or scaling. It is about identity, surrender, and what happens when you finally stop running from yourself. This episode dives into the hard moments we often hide—identity loss, burnout, betrayal, self-doubt—and reveals how owning your story is the first step toward building a life aligned with your purpose. Kayvon shares what it felt like to live a life that looked polished from the outside while everything was unraveling behind the curtain. We talk about losing trust in your own judgment, chasing validation through saving other people, and the slow erosion that comes from ignoring your intuition. We explore the walls he built to survive childhood, the labels that shaped him, and the shift from proving everyone wrong to proving himself right. And beneath all of it sits a quieter truth: real freedom is not achievement, it is trusting yourself enough to let go. From ego death to intuitive rebirth, this conversation is a masterclass in resilience, self-discovery, and finding your true north star when everything falls apart. Charles guides this conversation with the grounding, compassionate philosophy he brings to coaching:<ul><li>Your story is your power</li><li>Your purpose is born in your hardest moments</li><li>Reinvention begins when you stop living for others</li><li>Freedom comes from building with intention and integrity</li></ul> Whether you're an entrepreneur navigating burnout, a creative rebuilding your confidence, or someone standing at your own crossroads, this episode gives you the clarity, language, and emotional permission to start again—stronger, wiser, and truer to yourself. If this episode helped you, rate and review the show—it helps more people find stories of healing, growth, and purpose.Explore coaching, consulting, and strategy tools at&nbsp;<a href="https://turtzed.com/" target="_blank" style="color: blue;">TURTZED.com</a> Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast represents the views and opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. This content is intended for informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always consult with a qualified healthcare provider regarding your specific health needs. <a href="https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer" target="_blank">Read the full disclaimer. </a> 00:00:00 - Ego Death at Forty and Rebuilding00:06:30 - The Hard Work of Self Trust and Inner Healing00:09:45 - Intuition, Self Worth, and Emotional Awareness00:13:00 - Childhood Labels, Racism, and Early Identity Wounds00:16:15 - Intuition vs Intellect and Learning to Follow Your Gut00:19:30 - Breaking Old Patterns and Understanding Generational Trauma00:22:45 - Releasing Ego and Surrendering Old Identities00:26:00 - Business Collapse, Betrayal, and Lessons in Leadership00:29:15 - The Drive to Save Others and What It Reveals Internally00:32:30 - Mirror Method, Growth, and Loving the Game Again00:35:45 - Identity Shifts and Building a New Way of Living00:39:00 - Social Media, Avoidance, and Choosing Real Connection00:42:15 - Redefining Success through Family, Freedom, and Presence

<description>&lt;p&gt;What if you had let the version of yourself die so that you could rebirth the version you wanted to live?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In this deeply vulnerable and transformative episode of TURTZED, Charles sits down with &lt;strong&gt;Kayvon Kay&lt;/strong&gt; to talk about the moment his life cracked open at forty and the work it takes to rebuild yourself from the inside out. This conversation is not about business strategy or scaling. It is about identity, surrender, and what happens when you finally stop running from yourself. This episode dives into the hard moments we often hide—identity loss, burnout, betrayal, self-doubt—and reveals how owning your story is the first step toward building a life aligned with your purpose.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Kayvon shares what it felt like to live a life that looked polished from the outside while everything was unraveling behind the curtain. We talk about losing trust in your own judgment, chasing validation through saving other people, and the slow erosion that comes from ignoring your intuition. We explore the walls he built to survive childhood, the labels that shaped him, and the shift from proving everyone wrong to proving himself right. And beneath all of it sits a quieter truth: real freedom is not achievement, it is trusting yourself enough to let go. From ego death to intuitive rebirth, this conversation is a masterclass in resilience, self-discovery, and finding your true north star when everything falls apart.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Charles guides this conversation with the grounding, compassionate philosophy he brings to coaching:&lt;/p&gt;&lt;ul&gt;&lt;li&gt;Your story is your power&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Your purpose is born in your hardest moments&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Reinvention begins when you stop living for others&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Freedom comes from building with intention and integrity&lt;/li&gt;&lt;/ul&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Whether you're an entrepreneur navigating burnout, a creative rebuilding your confidence, or someone standing at your own crossroads, this episode gives you the clarity, language, and emotional permission to start again—stronger, wiser, and truer to yourself.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;If this episode helped you, rate and review the show—it helps more people find stories of healing, growth, and purpose.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Explore coaching, consulting, and strategy tools at&amp;nbsp;&lt;a href="https://turtzed.com/" target="_blank" style="color: blue;"&gt;TURTZED.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Disclaimer:&lt;/strong&gt; The TURTZED Podcast represents the views and opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. This content is intended for informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always consult with a qualified healthcare provider regarding your specific health needs. &lt;a href="https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer" target="_blank"&gt;Read the full disclaimer. &lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:00:00 - Ego Death at Forty and Rebuilding&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:06:30 - The Hard Work of Self Trust and Inner Healing&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:09:45 - Intuition, Self Worth, and Emotional Awareness&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:13:00 - Childhood Labels, Racism, and Early Identity Wounds&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:16:15 - Intuition vs Intellect and Learning to Follow Your Gut&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:19:30 - Breaking Old Patterns and Understanding Generational Trauma&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:22:45 - Releasing Ego and Surrendering Old Identities&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:26:00 - Business Collapse, Betrayal, and Lessons in Leadership&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:29:15 - The Drive to Save Others and What It Reveals Internally&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:32:30 - Mirror Method, Growth, and Loving the Game Again&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:35:45 - Identity Shifts and Building a New Way of Living&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:39:00 - Social Media, Avoidance, and Choosing Real Connection&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:42:15 - Redefining Success through Family, Freedom, and Presence&lt;/p&gt;</description>

What if you had let the version of yourself die so that you could rebirth the version you wanted to live?In this deeply vulnerable and transformative episode of TURTZED, Charles sits down with Kayvon Kay to talk about the moment his life cracked op...

 Kayvon Kay: How Almost Losing Everything Became The Greatest Gift of Transformation 

What if the reason you keep choosing the wrong people—or replaying old pain—isn’t weakness, but an invitation to heal? In this heartfelt conversation, Charles Turtz sits down with Keith Crossley, author of State Within Light: The Path to Enlightenment and creator of Anxiety Detox Training. Together, they explore the emotional mechanics of friendship, situationships, betrayal, and the lifelong work of rebuilding self-worth after trauma. Charles and Keith open up about control, anger, forgiveness, and the “not-enough wound” that hides beneath perfectionism, people-pleasing, and burnout. This is a raw, real look at how healing begins the moment we stop running from pain—and start meeting it with courage, compassion, and clarity. <h3>You’ll Learn:</h3>How to recognize when friendships are one-sided and emotionally drainingHow to identify the core fear driving your relationships and self-sabotageWhy anger is often a symptom of control—not weaknessHow to break karmic cycles and patterns that keep you stuck in painWhy true confidence begins with integrating your “shadow side”How to separate compassion from unhealthy attachment or obligationWhy suffering can be the path to growth, healing, and transcendence If this episode helped you, rate and review the show—it helps more people find stories of healing, growth, and purpose.Explore coaching, consulting, and strategy tools at <a href="https://turtzed.com" target="_blank">TURTZED.com</a> Keith Crossley: <a href="https://linktr.ee/kc35" target="_blank">https://linktr.ee/kc35 </a>Charles Turtz: <a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzc" target="_blank">beacons.ai/turtzc</a>TURTZED: <a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzed" target="_blank">beacons.ai/turtzed</a> <h3>Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast represents the views and opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. This content is intended for informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always consult with a qualified healthcare provider regarding your specific health needs. <a href="https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer" target="_blank">Read the full disclaimer.</a></h3><h3> </h3>00:00 – Meet Keith Crossley: From Betrayal to Emotional Healing02:15 – The Pain of One-Sided Friendships and Why We Keep Giving05:40 – Childhood Roots of the “Not-Enough” Wound08:10 – Relationship Boxes: Seeing People for Who They Are10:20 – Situationships, Boundaries, and False Hope12:15 – Cheating, Red Flags, and When to Walk Away15:30 – Fear of Abandonment and the Cycle of Self-Protection18:20 – Breaking Karma: Mapping Emotional Triggers22:30 – Celebrating Progress: Recognizing Triggers in Real Time25:10 – Anger, Control, and the Root of Emotional Reactions28:20 – Healing Parental Wounds and Setting Boundaries with Compassion31:00 – Integrating the Shadow Self and Finding Wholeness35:00 – Releasing Shame Through Accountability and Truth39:10 – The Descent Before Healing: Why It Gets Harder Before It Gets Better45:00 – Transcending Ego and Choosing Self-Awareness50:00 – The Path Beyond Suffering: How Healing Changes Everything54:20 – Lessons from Pain, Perspective, and Purpose

<description>&lt;p&gt;What if the reason you keep choosing the wrong people—or replaying old pain—isn’t weakness, but an invitation to heal?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In this heartfelt conversation, &lt;strong&gt;Charles Turtz&lt;/strong&gt; sits down with &lt;strong&gt;Keith Crossley&lt;/strong&gt;, author of &lt;em&gt;State Within Light: The Path to Enlightenment&lt;/em&gt; and creator of &lt;em&gt;Anxiety Detox Training&lt;/em&gt;. Together, they explore the emotional mechanics of friendship, situationships, betrayal, and the lifelong work of rebuilding self-worth after trauma.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Charles and Keith open up about control, anger, forgiveness, and the “not-enough wound” that hides beneath perfectionism, people-pleasing, and burnout. This is a raw, real look at how healing begins the moment we stop running from pain—and start meeting it with courage, compassion, and clarity.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;h3&gt;&lt;strong&gt;You’ll Learn:&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;p&gt;How to recognize when friendships are one-sided and emotionally draining&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;How to identify the core fear driving your relationships and self-sabotage&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Why anger is often a symptom of control—not weakness&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;How to break karmic cycles and patterns that keep you stuck in pain&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Why true confidence begins with integrating your “shadow side”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;How to separate compassion from unhealthy attachment or obligation&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Why suffering can be the path to growth, healing, and transcendence&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;If this episode helped you, rate and review the show—it helps more people find stories of healing, growth, and purpose.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Explore coaching, consulting, and strategy tools at &lt;a href="https://turtzed.com" target="_blank"&gt;TURTZED.com&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Keith Crossley: &lt;/strong&gt;&lt;a href="https://linktr.ee/kc35" target="_blank"&gt;https://linktr.ee/kc35 &lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Charles Turtz:&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzc" target="_blank"&gt;beacons.ai/turtzc&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;TURTZED:&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzed" target="_blank"&gt;beacons.ai/turtzed&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;h3&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Disclaimer: &lt;/strong&gt;The TURTZED Podcast represents the views and opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. This content is intended for informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always consult with a qualified healthcare provider regarding your specific health needs. &lt;a href="https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer" target="_blank"&gt;Read the full disclaimer.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;h3&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:00 – Meet Keith Crossley: From Betrayal to Emotional Healing&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;02:15 – The Pain of One-Sided Friendships and Why We Keep Giving&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;05:40 – Childhood Roots of the “Not-Enough” Wound&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;08:10 – Relationship Boxes: Seeing People for Who They Are&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;10:20 – Situationships, Boundaries, and False Hope&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;12:15 – Cheating, Red Flags, and When to Walk Away&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;15:30 – Fear of Abandonment and the Cycle of Self-Protection&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;18:20 – Breaking Karma: Mapping Emotional Triggers&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;22:30 – Celebrating Progress: Recognizing Triggers in Real Time&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;25:10 – Anger, Control, and the Root of Emotional Reactions&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;28:20 – Healing Parental Wounds and Setting Boundaries with Compassion&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;31:00 – Integrating the Shadow Self and Finding Wholeness&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;35:00 – Releasing Shame Through Accountability and Truth&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;39:10 – The Descent Before Healing: Why It Gets Harder Before It Gets Better&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;45:00 – Transcending Ego and Choosing Self-Awareness&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;50:00 – The Path Beyond Suffering: How Healing Changes Everything&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;54:20 – Lessons from Pain, Perspective, and Purpose&lt;/p&gt;</description>

What if the reason you keep choosing the wrong people—or replaying old pain—isn’t weakness, but an invitation to heal?In this heartfelt conversation, Charles Turtz sits down with Keith Crossley, author of State Within Light: The Path to Enlightenme...

Keith Crossley: Lost Yourself in Love? Reclaim Your Self-Worth & Heal | Ep. 46

What happens when the label that once hurt you becomes the voice that heals you? In this deeply human conversation, Charles Turtz sits down with James Wallis, creator of "Hey, gay boy", to unpack the journey from shame to authenticity. Together, they explore what it means to be seen versus simply visible, how to reclaim your story after years of silence, and why healing the inner child is essential to real confidence and connection. From navigating social media identity to redefining pride beyond perfection, this episode invites you to pause, breathe, and remember that growth doesn’t come from pretending — it comes from telling the truth. <h3>You’ll Learn:</h3><ul><li>How to transform shame into strength through storytelling</li><li>Why authenticity on social media starts with inner work</li><li>How to recognize the difference between visibility and being seen</li><li>Why vulnerability is the foundation of healing and self-worth</li><li>How to hold two truths: pride and pain can coexist</li><li>Why inner-child healing is key to emotional freedom</li><li>How to release perfectionism and embrace your full humanity</li></ul> If this episode helped you, rate and review the show—it helps more people find stories of healing, growth, and purpose.Explore coaching, consulting, and strategy tools at <a href="https://turtzed.com" target="_blank">TURTZED.com</a> James Wallis:<a href="https://linktr.ee/jameswallis" target="_blank"> https://linktr.ee/jameswallis</a> Charles Turtz: <a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzc" target="_blank">beacons.ai/turtzc</a>TURTZED: <a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzed" target="_blank">beacons.ai/turtzed</a> <h3>Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast represents the views and opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. This content is intended for informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always consult with a qualified healthcare provider regarding your specific health needs. <a href="https://turtzed.com/disclaimer" target="_blank">Read our full disclaimer.</a></h3> <h3>Timestamps</h3>00:00 – Meet James: The Creator Behind “Hey Gay Boy”04:00 – From Therapy to TikTok: Turning Shame Into Art07:00 – Why It’s Easier to Be Honest With Strangers09:00 – Authenticity, Audience, and the Second-Person Storytelling Style14:00 – The Difference Between Being Real and Performing Realness18:00 – Would You Take the Straight Pill? Reclaiming Complex Truths22:00 – Therapy, Gay Shame, and the Challenge of Self-Acceptance26:00 – Visibility vs. Being Seen: The Social Media Paradox30:00 – When Viral Means Unhealthy: The Hidden Cost of “Going Big”34:00 – The Pain Behind Perfection: Body Image and Validation38:00 – Learning Healthy Narcissism and Letting Go of Shame42:00 – Compliments, Validation, and the Power of Self-Awareness46:00 – Healing the Inner Child and Reconnecting to Joy50:00 – The Real Work of Recovery: Courage, Compassion, and Continuity54:00 – The Lesson That Changed Everything: Let the Wounded Child Rest

<description>&lt;p&gt;What happens when the label that once hurt you becomes the voice that heals you?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In this deeply human conversation, Charles Turtz sits down with &lt;strong&gt;James Wallis, creator of "Hey, gay boy", &lt;/strong&gt;to unpack the journey from shame to authenticity. Together, they explore what it means to be &lt;em&gt;seen&lt;/em&gt; versus simply &lt;em&gt;visible&lt;/em&gt;, how to reclaim your story after years of silence, and why healing the inner child is essential to real confidence and connection.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;From navigating social media identity to redefining pride beyond perfection, this episode invites you to pause, breathe, and remember that growth doesn’t come from pretending — it comes from telling the truth.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;h3&gt;&lt;strong&gt;You’ll Learn:&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;ul&gt;&lt;li&gt;How to transform shame into strength through storytelling&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Why authenticity on social media starts with inner work&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;How to recognize the difference between visibility and being seen&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Why vulnerability is the foundation of healing and self-worth&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;How to hold two truths: pride and pain can coexist&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;Why inner-child healing is key to emotional freedom&lt;/li&gt;&lt;li&gt;How to release perfectionism and embrace your full humanity&lt;/li&gt;&lt;/ul&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;If this episode helped you, rate and review the show—it helps more people find stories of healing, growth, and purpose.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Explore coaching, consulting, and strategy tools at &lt;a href="https://turtzed.com" target="_blank"&gt;&lt;strong&gt;TURTZED.com&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;James Wallis:&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;a href="https://linktr.ee/jameswallis" target="_blank"&gt;&lt;strong&gt; &lt;/strong&gt;https://linktr.ee/jameswallis&lt;/a&gt; &lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Charles Turtz:&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzc" target="_blank"&gt;beacons.ai/turtzc&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;TURTZED:&lt;/strong&gt; &lt;a href="https://beacons.ai/turtzed" target="_blank"&gt;beacons.ai/turtzed&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;h3&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Disclaimer: &lt;/strong&gt;The TURTZED Podcast represents the views and opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. This content is intended for informational, educational, and entertainment purposes only. It is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always consult with a qualified healthcare provider regarding your specific health needs. &lt;a href="https://turtzed.com/disclaimer" target="_blank"&gt;Read our full disclaimer.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;h3&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Timestamps&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:00 – Meet James: The Creator Behind “Hey Gay Boy”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;04:00 – From Therapy to TikTok: Turning Shame Into Art&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;07:00 – Why It’s Easier to Be Honest With Strangers&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;09:00 – Authenticity, Audience, and the Second-Person Storytelling Style&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;14:00 – The Difference Between Being Real and Performing Realness&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;18:00 – Would You Take the Straight Pill? Reclaiming Complex Truths&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;22:00 – Therapy, Gay Shame, and the Challenge of Self-Acceptance&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;26:00 – Visibility vs. Being Seen: The Social Media Paradox&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;30:00 – When Viral Means Unhealthy: The Hidden Cost of “Going Big”&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;34:00 – The Pain Behind Perfection: Body Image and Validation&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;38:00 – Learning Healthy Narcissism and Letting Go of Shame&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;42:00 – Compliments, Validation, and the Power of Self-Awareness&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;46:00 – Healing the Inner Child and Reconnecting to Joy&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;50:00 – The Real Work of Recovery: Courage, Compassion, and Continuity&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;54:00 – The Lesson That Changed Everything: Let the Wounded Child Rest&lt;/p&gt;</description>

What happens when the label that once hurt you becomes the voice that heals you?In this deeply human conversation, Charles Turtz sits down with James Wallis, creator of "Hey, gay boy", to unpack the journey from shame to authenticity. Together, the...

James Wallis: Overcoming Gay Shame -- A Mental Health Journey | Ep. 45

What if the hardest person to be honest with… is yourself? In Episode 44 of TURTZED, Charlie records solo—raw, unrehearsed, and deeply honest—about what it means to hit a personal wall and decide not to quit, but to reset. He opens up about the paralyzing fear of being seen, the pressure to be perfect, and how healing sometimes begins when you stop overanalyzing and just speak from the heart. This episode is an intimate look at the inner critic, the weight of complex PTSD, and the power of showing up—even when it’s hard. Whether you’re building something new, navigating a big life change, or struggling to trust your voice, this episode offers a grounded reminder: the reset doesn’t require perfection—it only requires courage. <h3>Key Takeaways:</h3>Perfectionism Is a Form of Avoidance – When you aim to get everything “just right,” you often end up staying stuck. Clarity comes from action, not overthinking.Comfort Zones Can Be Traps – The things that feel safe are often the exact things that keep you from doing what you’re meant to do.The Inner Critic Is Loud—But Not Always Right – Fear of judgment and failure often masks your true voice. Learning to speak anyway is a radical act of self-trust.Change Is a Muscle You Build – Whether it’s coaching, career shifts, or personal healing, momentum comes from repetition and resilience—not a sudden breakthrough.You’re Allowed to Want More – Wanting to move, start a business, or end something that no longer serves you doesn’t make you selfish. It makes you human.Connection Begins With Honesty – The most meaningful relationships (even with an audience) start when you stop hiding and say what’s really on your mind. Charles Turtz: https://beacons.ai/turtzcTURTZED: https://beacons.ai/turtzed Disclaimer: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit: https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer 00:00 - Facing the Fear: Building Confidence Through Discomfort&nbsp;00:40 - The Weight of Self-Criticism and Anxiety&nbsp;01:11 - Overanalyzing Every Word: The Inner Critic’s Grip&nbsp;01:53 - Sharing Stories Without Fear of Judgment&nbsp;02:25 - The Purpose Behind TURTZED: Helping Others Heal&nbsp;02:48 - Finding Comfort in Discomfort: On-Camera Growth&nbsp;03:18 - 2026 Vision: Building Confidence Through Change&nbsp;03:54 - Measuring Growth and Authenticity Over Time&nbsp;04:34 - Celebrating Progress Despite the Struggles&nbsp;05:26 - The Radical Reset: Letting Go of Perfection&nbsp;06:16 - Learning Through Hard Work and Resilience&nbsp;06:46 - Overcoming Burnout and the Need for Validation&nbsp;07:40 - Complex PTSD, Intrusive Thoughts, and Self-Awareness&nbsp;08:12 - Starting Over After Burnout: A Radical Reset Mindset&nbsp;09:04 - The Fear of Success and Fear of Change&nbsp;09:38 - Breaking Comfort Zones: How to Build Real Confidence&nbsp;10:00 - Flexing Your Fear Muscle: Growth Through Action&nbsp;10:22 - Authentic Connection: Why Vulnerability Builds Strength

<description>&lt;p&gt;What if the hardest person to be honest with… is yourself?&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;In Episode 44 of TURTZED, Charlie records solo—raw, unrehearsed, and deeply honest—about what it means to hit a personal wall and decide not to quit, but to reset.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;He opens up about the paralyzing fear of being seen, the pressure to be perfect, and how healing sometimes begins when you stop overanalyzing and just speak from the heart. This episode is an intimate look at the inner critic, the weight of complex PTSD, and the power of showing up—even when it’s hard.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;Whether you’re building something new, navigating a big life change, or struggling to trust your voice, this episode offers a grounded reminder: the reset doesn’t require perfection—it only requires courage.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;h3&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Key Takeaways:&lt;/strong&gt;&lt;/h3&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Perfectionism Is a Form of Avoidance&lt;/strong&gt; – When you aim to get everything “just right,” you often end up staying stuck. Clarity comes from action, not overthinking.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Comfort Zones Can Be Traps&lt;/strong&gt; – The things that feel safe are often the exact things that keep you from doing what you’re meant to do.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;The Inner Critic Is Loud—But Not Always Right&lt;/strong&gt; – Fear of judgment and failure often masks your true voice. Learning to speak anyway is a radical act of self-trust.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Change Is a Muscle You Build&lt;/strong&gt; – Whether it’s coaching, career shifts, or personal healing, momentum comes from repetition and resilience—not a sudden breakthrough.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;You’re Allowed to Want More&lt;/strong&gt; – Wanting to move, start a business, or end something that no longer serves you doesn’t make you selfish. It makes you human.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Connection Begins With Honesty&lt;/strong&gt; – The most meaningful relationships (even with an audience) start when you stop hiding and say what’s really on your mind.&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;span style="color: rgb(13, 13, 13);"&gt;Charles Turtz: https://beacons.ai/turtzc&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;span style="color: rgb(13, 13, 13);"&gt;TURTZED: https://beacons.ai/turtzed&lt;/span&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;strong&gt;Disclaimer&lt;/strong&gt;: The TURTZED Podcast reflects the opinions of Charles Turtz and his guests. Content is for educational and entertainment purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice. Always consult a qualified healthcare provider for advice tailored to your individual needs. For the full disclaimer, visit: https://www.turtzed.com/disclaimer&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;&lt;br&gt;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:00 - Facing the Fear: Building Confidence Through Discomfort&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;00:40 - The Weight of Self-Criticism and Anxiety&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;01:11 - Overanalyzing Every Word: The Inner Critic’s Grip&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;01:53 - Sharing Stories Without Fear of Judgment&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;02:25 - The Purpose Behind TURTZED: Helping Others Heal&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;02:48 - Finding Comfort in Discomfort: On-Camera Growth&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;03:18 - 2026 Vision: Building Confidence Through Change&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;03:54 - Measuring Growth and Authenticity Over Time&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;04:34 - Celebrating Progress Despite the Struggles&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;05:26 - The Radical Reset: Letting Go of Perfection&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;06:16 - Learning Through Hard Work and Resilience&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;06:46 - Overcoming Burnout and the Need for Validation&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;07:40 - Complex PTSD, Intrusive Thoughts, and Self-Awareness&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;08:12 - Starting Over After Burnout: A Radical Reset Mindset&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;09:04 - The Fear of Success and Fear of Change&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;09:38 - Breaking Comfort Zones: How to Build Real Confidence&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;10:00 - Flexing Your Fear Muscle: Growth Through Action&amp;nbsp;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;p&gt;10:22 - Authentic Connection: Why Vulnerability Builds Strength&lt;/p&gt;</description>

What if the hardest person to be honest with… is yourself?In Episode 44 of TURTZED, Charlie records solo—raw, unrehearsed, and deeply honest—about what it means to hit a personal wall and decide not to quit, but to reset.He opens up about the paral...

Radical Reset: Letting Go of Perfection and Reclaiming Your Voice | Ep. 44

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