I could have named this show “I Masturbated to the Thought of You With Someone Else…” In our third podcast episode together Marcel (my partner of 2 years) and I dive deep into topics like freedom, jealousy, tears, solo polyamory, sexual freedom, and maturity in open love. Recorded in a hammock in southern Spain, we explore: -How freedom can be both inspiring and terrifying in relationships. -If they could remove one pain from each other's lives, what it would be. -How fear can actually deepen love. -Honest stories about jealousy—including a frightening hotel room moment. -Why jealousy is often a mirror of our own unmet desires. -Crying for the first time in 10 years and redefining masculinity. -The difference between envy and jealousy. -Solo polyamory: loving without merging lives. -The unexpected way opening a relationship changes desire. -Myths about open love, and why it’s not a constant orgy. -The beauty of living relationships by conscious choice. -The most sovereign version of us in love. If this resonated I'd love to hear it! Want to dive deeper and grow with me?  Drop me a DM on Instagram:  https://www.instagram.com/rise.with.thorhildur/  Join the waitlist for upcoming courses on relationships, non-monogamy and more: https://sundurogsaman.me/waitlist  Explore coaching with me: https://sundurogsaman.me/coaching